Some other thoughts

[sathor]

So, talking to a few other people about PUA brought up some points.

For one, in the PUA community, there's kind of a way about it that turns getting laid or getting relationships into equations. I'm not exactly looking at PUA like that. More or less, I'm looking at PUA as a way to work on my charisma. Ya know, physically, I'm not that bad off...being massive in frame has advantages, it's an automatic stand out.

But it's been my mentality for a long time that really axes my Cha score ;)

I think it's just -this place-. After all, I really did have some good conversations and met a lot of people when I was back at College...and that was a small, non-traditional one as well. It was also in a small town...I wouldn't call Jamestown a city, at all.

God, I can't wait to get out of here :) All of those dreams from my high school journal will be realized once that happens...and maybe that's exactly what I need.

I wonder how I'll feel about the entries from 2009 in 2012, after two more years of college?

Comments

[sendao.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure negativity is the only thing that's ever axed your charisma score. PUA and pretending to be something you're not may be good for your confidence, but so is taking a shit on the rest of humanity. *shrugs*

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to pretend to be something I'm not.

I want to learn to be extroverted and interested, and for that matter, I have to put into practice all of the Buddhist tenets and meditations I have come across over the years. If I don't talk to strangers, get to know them, show my love for them, how am I ever going to test my own righteousness?

I used to be really argumentative, really contrary. But what I really want to do is be understanding and loving. I'm sick of hating. Sick of it.