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Apparently I was Mr. Popular yesterday. I received two phone calls in 15 minutes and called one other person within a half hour prior to that...ridiculous.
I did end up talking to Matt a little. Not impressed. He basically had -no- idea what I was mad about, or why I was simply avoiding him. When he brought it up, he didn't even give me time to explain -why-. He just kept talking. Typical matt. Super-ridiculous "dominant" alpha male. No wonder he gets laid. What is it about guys like him that girls just attach themselves too? What exactly is wrong with a guy like me, who is confident when he's not a fish out of water? Silly girls. They've no idea what kind of guy it takes to have a meaningful relationship. Either that, or most of them my age simply don't want one. Too bad. I'm way better in bed than most guys ;)
Rick ended up picking me up and taking me down to a fire at his sis' house. Jamie was talkative with me as usual. Brooke seemed to be in a much better mood but there was still drama. At one point when rick left for like a half hour (no kidding) still in the house but no anywhere near us, she started saying how it had nothing to do with me being there and that it happens all the time. Really heart breaking to see that. They had a fight today too over the phone when I was in his car. Sigh. I wish things like that didn't have to happen.
Jamie was kinda being silly. At one point I said one perverted thing all night (I think) and she said, "give him a break, he hasn't gotten laid in two years" and I said, "That's only because I'm ugly" - she kinda giggled and said, "No self esteem, Jake, no self esteem..."
She seems to think the reason why I don't have a girlfriend is because I have no confidence. Why can't I just be myself and get a girlfriend? Why is it always about changing something? Sigh. It's not that I don't have confidence, I don't have confidence with regards to -women-. I have confidence in every other fucking respect. Apparently women aren't too perceptive? Just because I don't expect women to fall head over heels for my giant, intellectual, reclusive self shouldn't mean I am X'd off the market. I also asked her if she thought I was creepy and she said no :P
Good night, besides the fact I drank -way- too much. Way, way, way too much.
Rick came up today and we had a bit of an StarCraft 2 Marathon in my room. I think we went something like 10 wins 6 losses. Pretty good for my first 16 games. Really enjoyed that...bonding is all about shared experience. Beginning to realize that.
That's that...haven't done much else since. Been pretty sickly today so after he left I laid down for three hours and now I'm up again. Having a few drinks helped take the edge off but I'm still tired as hell. Going to sleep well whenever I get there, I think.
I did end up talking to Matt a little. Not impressed. He basically had -no- idea what I was mad about, or why I was simply avoiding him. When he brought it up, he didn't even give me time to explain -why-. He just kept talking. Typical matt. Super-ridiculous "dominant" alpha male. No wonder he gets laid. What is it about guys like him that girls just attach themselves too? What exactly is wrong with a guy like me, who is confident when he's not a fish out of water? Silly girls. They've no idea what kind of guy it takes to have a meaningful relationship. Either that, or most of them my age simply don't want one. Too bad. I'm way better in bed than most guys ;)
Rick ended up picking me up and taking me down to a fire at his sis' house. Jamie was talkative with me as usual. Brooke seemed to be in a much better mood but there was still drama. At one point when rick left for like a half hour (no kidding) still in the house but no anywhere near us, she started saying how it had nothing to do with me being there and that it happens all the time. Really heart breaking to see that. They had a fight today too over the phone when I was in his car. Sigh. I wish things like that didn't have to happen.
Jamie was kinda being silly. At one point I said one perverted thing all night (I think) and she said, "give him a break, he hasn't gotten laid in two years" and I said, "That's only because I'm ugly" - she kinda giggled and said, "No self esteem, Jake, no self esteem..."
She seems to think the reason why I don't have a girlfriend is because I have no confidence. Why can't I just be myself and get a girlfriend? Why is it always about changing something? Sigh. It's not that I don't have confidence, I don't have confidence with regards to -women-. I have confidence in every other fucking respect. Apparently women aren't too perceptive? Just because I don't expect women to fall head over heels for my giant, intellectual, reclusive self shouldn't mean I am X'd off the market. I also asked her if she thought I was creepy and she said no :P
Good night, besides the fact I drank -way- too much. Way, way, way too much.
Rick came up today and we had a bit of an StarCraft 2 Marathon in my room. I think we went something like 10 wins 6 losses. Pretty good for my first 16 games. Really enjoyed that...bonding is all about shared experience. Beginning to realize that.
That's that...haven't done much else since. Been pretty sickly today so after he left I laid down for three hours and now I'm up again. Having a few drinks helped take the edge off but I'm still tired as hell. Going to sleep well whenever I get there, I think.
