I sure could use a vacation from this...

Every once in awhile, I blow myself away with a composition.

http://www.myspace.com/renderedobsolete

Through the Portal is a mind-fuck from hell. This is one of the songs I write that takes on a life of it's own.

As far as real life goes, all is quiet. Yeah, you heard me.

Boring.

I'm practicing guitar daily, and have gotten pretty far with it. Sky's the limit, obviously...I have the free time...

Still haven't decided on what keyboard I want.

Diploma is already paid for (as soon as I send the stupid check ;))

Uhm...at this point, I don't know what is left to do. Nothing here, that's for certain.

Yeah, I'm paying off loans right...but I can just put them into deferment until I leave college again. Only a drop in the bucket will accumulate on what's left (about 7 grand left to pay) in even 6 years. The problem is that I'm so interested in music, I'm not sure I want to go back to school and spend so much time involved in academics. I mean, I really do believe I have a genuine talent for music. There are others that believe that as well. Pursuing it seems to be a good idea, especially because it is so therapeutic for me. I just want to be sure I have the time, that's all. I'm fairly certain I won't at some point, and I am afraid of that...but I'll take it a day at a time. I want a social life of some degree...one that isn't partying focused...drinking focused...drug focused...like every circle I've ever seen or been in before. I don't see anything different here, and I never did. I want a social circle of spiritualists and magicians. I don't want a social circle of potheads and alcoholics. I want to have this stuff before I'm dead. I want to see this fucking world, every inch of it.

I'm so bored with this place.

I know it's why Mr. Craig was pushing me to get the fuck out of here. I think it had little to do with College itself.