"Nothing lasts forever"

Well, as that title is a reminder of a great orgy song in my opinion, i think im going to reflect upon it.
Ive noticed, finally, that no matter who i become friends with, i always push away from them if it becomes a friendship that actually means something. Not just aquaintences, but something more then that. And i hate myself for it. I push away because i know sooner or later, something is going to change for the worse. that person will move away, or, ill lose contact with them. And then, it was all just a waste, of time, of thought, of emotion. And it -hurts- so much knowing that nothing lasts forever, and that nothing i ever do matters. And as another person i know says, ignorance is bliss, and i agree. im sure many other people do.

Compassion

Sometimes silence is the best policy. But, as it seems, most of the assholes in this world do not know how to do that. They always have something smart to say. As i was explaining my point of view on my current life, this someone decided to say "If you want a pity party, get a room". Some humans dont have any god damn compassion, i never ask for pity, but the least a person could do is notice that i was in a grim mood already, and just leave it be. damn idiots...