"Nothing lasts forever"
Dec. 20th, 2001 06:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorWell, as that title is a reminder of a great orgy song in my opinion, i think im going to reflect upon it.
Ive noticed, finally, that no matter who i become friends with, i always push away from them if it becomes a friendship that actually means something. Not just aquaintences, but something more then that. And i hate myself for it. I push away because i know sooner or later, something is going to change for the worse. that person will move away, or, ill lose contact with them. And then, it was all just a waste, of time, of thought, of emotion. And it -hurts- so much knowing that nothing lasts forever, and that nothing i ever do matters. And as another person i know says, ignorance is bliss, and i agree. im sure many other people do.
Ive noticed, finally, that no matter who i become friends with, i always push away from them if it becomes a friendship that actually means something. Not just aquaintences, but something more then that. And i hate myself for it. I push away because i know sooner or later, something is going to change for the worse. that person will move away, or, ill lose contact with them. And then, it was all just a waste, of time, of thought, of emotion. And it -hurts- so much knowing that nothing lasts forever, and that nothing i ever do matters. And as another person i know says, ignorance is bliss, and i agree. im sure many other people do.
