Vacation...

[sathor]

Well, i didn't get to warn many people about the fact i was going on vacation for a week but ahh well, no one cares anyway. I just got back from topsail island (i have gone once before, but this time i had my immediate family with me) it wasn't so bad i guess, i was able to get away from my contemplative self for awhile and stop feeling so depressed. But i'm back to normal now.

I compare myself to a mentat now. I continually analyze things and since i'm mostly a pessimist it just makes this depression or whatever this feeling is worse. Am i destined failure or am i just supposed to think that...i have no idea.

Comments

Hrm.

[hav.livejournal.com]

Over-analyzation is not a good thing.
(Why do I smell tequila?)

I understand you spend most of your time depressed. Well, I'm not going to try to change it, since you're the only one that does. However, I do know one cure for pessimism.

See, going off what you said in the mud today, if you think you're such a loner, or want people to talk to you, or what-fuckin-ever...Christ, if you just want interaction, then take the first step. What do you really have to lose?

If they don't talk to you, hey, you were right. Better off without them anyway. They're pricks. Don't bother.

But hey. If people DO talk to you, or whatever it is you're thinking...Then you've just won. See, when you've got nothing to lose, you've got a lot more options than you think.

But if you don't take those options...Then maybe you really do have something to lose. In which case, quit posing. =p

I don't mean to insult. But I'm not going to waste time dancing around the meaning of my words.

I read that URL you sent me. You should read the whole thing, if you haven't. The basis of the rant wasn't that we're all dead, so woe is me.

The moral of that story was, "Take a lease out on life, and have fun with it." I agree. Life's too short to be spent worrying about tomorrow. Too short to be spent lamenting about yesterday. Life has a funny way of working out on its own.

Re: Hrm.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I did read it all. I'm in a better mood now. I have quick mood swings (bi-polar affect maybe). And i like being a loner to tell you the truth. But you have to understand that i do not get along with people my own age. A few i do, sure, but that communication is limited to during school (those kids i get along with are also pretty much "loners", or atleast unpopular kids) and no, there was no tequila involved. i drank zima, skyy blue, miller light and rick's spiked lemonade last week :P