Suddenly...

[sathor]

Suddenly...as if springing from the very storm outside itself, i'm going out with someone. I dont know how it happened really...i hadn't talked to this girl for about 1-2 months. She just...started showing interest in me. Of course...this could all be one big joke. I'm hoping not, i'de rather not have my first high-school relationship be a joke *sighs* ok, be optimistic then. She is one grade less then me, but i never cared about age. And she actually is mature, from what i remember about our conversations. Though...i just have this wierd feeling we don't have enough in common *shrugs*

Wierd...but its freaking me out. Why did i say yes? I dont know...oh well, gotta get some experience somewhere dont I have any.

I understand now that i'm not really a Wiccan...i do magick through my own way, not a way thats in a book. And i know that i will find my own path, and advance on my own, because i shouldn't have to follow a book to gain a mage mind and be at my full potential. i need to develop still, and i understand.

Well...thats enough for now...

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

Heh...thanks...it's a surprise more then one person actually reads them. Makes me glad, heh.

[lilacwolf.livejournal.com]

Hang in there chummer. Things happen for damned weird reasons, and they're usually unexpected, but they all happen for some purpose.

Things will get easier as you learn more about yourself and how you think/feel/react/act/behave as you get older. Take time to lean back and think about YOU and who/what you really are. What you mean to yourself (emphasis here) and to others. Some things you find out will not be happy things, others will be wonderful, some will be comfusing.. but they will all reflect on you and how well you know yourself.

I read what you write here and I understand how you are feeling. Even if you don't believe me.
And I will be here to give ya a word of wisdom, or to get flamed for them.

Peace.

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

Ermm...why would you get flamed? I love words of wisdom...I can never have enough. I already have learned more about myself in the past few weeks then i learned probably in the past few years. Just from meeting a few new people. Just from thinking about myself more, and meditating more. Strange like that...I need more information on otherkin, the idea is stuck in my head. Heh...if you would still, go along with that guide thing you were going to do for me.