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Clean for what...three days now...wow, isn't /that/ amazing. On the third day my cravings always disappear it seems.
I actually had fun with my friends last night, no drugs whatsoever at all. That hasn't happened in forever, and I guess I've somewhat forgotten that it can be done.
I think I feel content in a sense. The only reason I really like smoking herb is because there's absolutely nothing better to do around here (And don't be telling me that's just an excuse for being lazy...it really isn't. I live out in the middle of nowhere, and since I don't have a license it's somewhat difficult to find things to do outside of this house)...and what do i have to do in this house? Work, music, exercise, games, herb. Really now, there's barely anything wrong with that at all, considering that fact I can hang out with my friends whenever i want during the week/weekends. I guess the only thing that I want that's not satisfied is companionship. And you know...some people never find that, so I probably shouldn't stress so much over it especially when as soon as I get out of this area there will be many more new people to meet.
While I'm here, I should enjoy what I have. A few friends, all the gaming in the world, the music, nature, and yes, drugs. Because someday I might have even less of these things satisfied, and to squander them now would be foolish.
Also, Noxi, my quiet dream is to learn much on botany and have a large herb/flower garden. There's nothing really stopping me, considering the fact that no one in my family ever uses all of the garden we have setup anymore. I just need to buy the seeds/herbs that I want this spring and plant them. Learning from nature is about the only way to learn how to be a solitary druid, so it's a step in more than one direction I want.
I also want an herb garden because it's really hard to identify anything when you're just walking around a forest unless you actually had every single herb in a handbook memorized. The only one I managed to identify last year was mandrake, and it's all over the place. Poisonous if you use it when it's green. Seems like the deer don't mind it then, however.
I was really hoping I'd get lucky and find a wormwood tree but that's pretty much impossible...they were really only introduced in California supposedly. Absinthe would be something really neat to try out.
I actually had fun with my friends last night, no drugs whatsoever at all. That hasn't happened in forever, and I guess I've somewhat forgotten that it can be done.
I think I feel content in a sense. The only reason I really like smoking herb is because there's absolutely nothing better to do around here (And don't be telling me that's just an excuse for being lazy...it really isn't. I live out in the middle of nowhere, and since I don't have a license it's somewhat difficult to find things to do outside of this house)...and what do i have to do in this house? Work, music, exercise, games, herb. Really now, there's barely anything wrong with that at all, considering that fact I can hang out with my friends whenever i want during the week/weekends. I guess the only thing that I want that's not satisfied is companionship. And you know...some people never find that, so I probably shouldn't stress so much over it especially when as soon as I get out of this area there will be many more new people to meet.
While I'm here, I should enjoy what I have. A few friends, all the gaming in the world, the music, nature, and yes, drugs. Because someday I might have even less of these things satisfied, and to squander them now would be foolish.
Also, Noxi, my quiet dream is to learn much on botany and have a large herb/flower garden. There's nothing really stopping me, considering the fact that no one in my family ever uses all of the garden we have setup anymore. I just need to buy the seeds/herbs that I want this spring and plant them. Learning from nature is about the only way to learn how to be a solitary druid, so it's a step in more than one direction I want.
I also want an herb garden because it's really hard to identify anything when you're just walking around a forest unless you actually had every single herb in a handbook memorized. The only one I managed to identify last year was mandrake, and it's all over the place. Poisonous if you use it when it's green. Seems like the deer don't mind it then, however.
I was really hoping I'd get lucky and find a wormwood tree but that's pretty much impossible...they were really only introduced in California supposedly. Absinthe would be something really neat to try out.
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I'm pretty sure it's a mild hallucinogen, isn't it?
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I haven't quit anything either...I've just slowed down tremendously on consumption.
Which is a very good thing, really.
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You could face serious charges for even having the stuff if you ever got it.
-smirk- Go to Canada if you're serious. CHill.
Wormwood...and absinthe
I, personally, advise against Absinthe any more often than one shotglass, once, to see what it tastes like.
*shrugs*
But it's good that you're happy.