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Nov. 26th, 2003 07:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorWhen I was in 9th grade I really liked this one girl on my bus.
She was a senior, the only one it seemed like in the world at that time that would talk to me.
I became really good friends with her, and I felt like i was falling in love with her or something along the lines of that.
In any case, nothing really ever came of it. She got a boyfriend (she should've long before then...she was a beautiful girl) and went to college.
So off and on, I have heard from her, usually when she comes home from there.
She gets on msn, home for thanksgiving break i guess, and a conversation ensues where at first i get this feeling like she flirting with me heavily, and i didn't really understand.
So whatever, she starts saying stuff like how awesome i am, how i was the only one that talked to her when everyone in tidioute though she was a bitch, and all of this.
Then she tells me she had a crush on me when i was in 9th grade, when we talked.
Never once said these things to me back then. Never said she liked me. And we didn't talk as much when she did get a boyfriend back then.
So this makes me think. Why. It's scary, because i didn't think anyone that was older than me like that, with like four years on top of me, would ever like ME.
But according to her, it was true. And she still likes me, but the boyfriend thing.
What i don't get, is she told me she wished that she could find a guy who would love her for the good and the bad.
How is that relationship going if she asks me that i wonder?
I just don't like this. I don't like how it feels. I kindof wish she wouldn't have said it. It makes me hurt. -sighs-
She was a senior, the only one it seemed like in the world at that time that would talk to me.
I became really good friends with her, and I felt like i was falling in love with her or something along the lines of that.
In any case, nothing really ever came of it. She got a boyfriend (she should've long before then...she was a beautiful girl) and went to college.
So off and on, I have heard from her, usually when she comes home from there.
She gets on msn, home for thanksgiving break i guess, and a conversation ensues where at first i get this feeling like she flirting with me heavily, and i didn't really understand.
So whatever, she starts saying stuff like how awesome i am, how i was the only one that talked to her when everyone in tidioute though she was a bitch, and all of this.
Then she tells me she had a crush on me when i was in 9th grade, when we talked.
Never once said these things to me back then. Never said she liked me. And we didn't talk as much when she did get a boyfriend back then.
So this makes me think. Why. It's scary, because i didn't think anyone that was older than me like that, with like four years on top of me, would ever like ME.
But according to her, it was true. And she still likes me, but the boyfriend thing.
What i don't get, is she told me she wished that she could find a guy who would love her for the good and the bad.
How is that relationship going if she asks me that i wonder?
I just don't like this. I don't like how it feels. I kindof wish she wouldn't have said it. It makes me hurt. -sighs-
