I thought I was done with these...
Mar. 20th, 2011 10:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorSeriously...I really thought I had conquered my depression.
I'll be honest...I'm looking forward to shutdown. I'm looking forward to four to six weeks without a single day where I'm not at work. Because my life is that empty. Work is interesting...there's people, and there's human interaction...I really can't deal with living on this hill without it. Until I have a car or summer gets here and I can get my bike license, my weekends are really just terribly bad for my emotional state...
Maybe I should bid into operations. Maybe it's the only way I'll be able to keep myself from falling apart again.
I'm not sure what to do.
I'm afraid that...even the friendships I have are just as empty as my life...and I'm not sure there's much that can be done about that.
Seems like my heart is broken, you know?
I'll be honest...I'm looking forward to shutdown. I'm looking forward to four to six weeks without a single day where I'm not at work. Because my life is that empty. Work is interesting...there's people, and there's human interaction...I really can't deal with living on this hill without it. Until I have a car or summer gets here and I can get my bike license, my weekends are really just terribly bad for my emotional state...
Maybe I should bid into operations. Maybe it's the only way I'll be able to keep myself from falling apart again.
I'm not sure what to do.
I'm afraid that...even the friendships I have are just as empty as my life...and I'm not sure there's much that can be done about that.
Seems like my heart is broken, you know?
