Tear it Open.
Jan. 27th, 2011 09:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorI have to be a masochist. I really, probably, should never allow myself to speak with exes ever. It's sorta funny, how that whole business works out. I think I should be over it, you know...I really should be. I really shouldn't care, it really shouldn't make my heart hurt. But it does.
It makes me think about how screwed up I -must- be in my head to still have strong feelings for these girls. Based on what I went through, how much fucking turmoil it caused in my life, mentally and emotionally. I just don't get it. Why do I even talk to them? It's not like they would ever fill the fucking void again, right?
Emo post, sure, I know. But I really wish I understood myself better, sometimes.
It makes me think about how screwed up I -must- be in my head to still have strong feelings for these girls. Based on what I went through, how much fucking turmoil it caused in my life, mentally and emotionally. I just don't get it. Why do I even talk to them? It's not like they would ever fill the fucking void again, right?
Emo post, sure, I know. But I really wish I understood myself better, sometimes.
