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Mar. 14th, 2010 07:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorDefinitely not a good night.
Terrible night, in fact.
I can't project an accepting facade anymore. I kinda realized that tonight. I was convinced to DD and hated every minute of it. Alcohol usually makes the dislike appear less but in fact it is not. I'm really a jaded guy. That's all there is too it.
And no changing for the benefit of others is going to happen.
If I am of some value some day some one will come to me.
If I am not, no one will.
And I am frustrated with my own self as well, but I can never be the guy who knows everybody, or gets to know everyone, or who puts himself out there where he's vulnerable.
People fucking suck, either that or I do.
Terrible night, in fact.
I can't project an accepting facade anymore. I kinda realized that tonight. I was convinced to DD and hated every minute of it. Alcohol usually makes the dislike appear less but in fact it is not. I'm really a jaded guy. That's all there is too it.
And no changing for the benefit of others is going to happen.
If I am of some value some day some one will come to me.
If I am not, no one will.
And I am frustrated with my own self as well, but I can never be the guy who knows everybody, or gets to know everyone, or who puts himself out there where he's vulnerable.
People fucking suck, either that or I do.
