I wanna be...

[sathor]

I know I really seem like a Reznor fanboy...but I guess you latch on to idols that you feel a connection with...and he grew up in the same place I did. And I eventually started writing music that wasn't so far away from his. I guess I kinda look up to him almost like an older brother that I only knew through art.

I realized that Deep came out when I was 13...and I'm not even sure I was listening to Reznor yet then. And Deep was midway through his discographical career. He got better from Pretty Hate Machine. PHM was very unfinished, very unpolished, very harsh. Everything kept getting better, maybe as a result of equipment, but I think he grew a lot as a musician in all of that time.

And what this means for me is that I can't ever give up because I need time to grow myself. I'm not even ten years into making music.

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Finding myself

[brebre-345.livejournal.com]

as a young girl i felt left out and lonely, because people never really gave me a chance as a person which made me really depresed to the point that i started starving myself and isilating myself for everyone including myself. i was also that girl who never expressed her feelings to anyone,because i always felt that my opinion really didn't matter to anyone else, so i keep my feelings hiden deep inside me but then found a place in my heart where i did matter and that place was writtng.

Re: Finding myself

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I can say it was about the same for my self. I did have a core group of friends and still do, but they've never been very reliable. Writing is something I have to do, about the same as I have to write music. It's about expressing my soul externally.

I don't think I know you, but welcome to my journal. It can be pretty adult at times and you are young, but I don't feel the need to screen. Just be forewarned you might come across stuff you haven't been introduced to elsewhere.

[brebre-345.livejournal.com]

hey thinks for the welcome and thanks for the warning a head of time but theres nothing that i don't know about living life lol