Fuck all users of the world, Suffering is all you bring

[sathor]

"Harvester of Sorrow"

My life suffocates
Planting seeds of hate
I've loved, turned to hate
Trapped far beyond my fate

I give
You take
This life that i forsake
Been cheated of my youth
You turned this lie to truth

Anger
Misery
You'll suffer unto me

Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow

Pure black looking clear
My work is done soon here
Try getting back to me
Get back which used to be

Drink up
Shoot in
Let the beatings begin
Distributor of pain
Your loss becomes my gain

Anger
Misery
You'll suffer unto me

Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow

All have said their prayers
Invade their nightmares
See into my eyes
You'll find where murder lies

Infanticide

Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow
Language of the mad
Harvester of sorrow

"Hurt"

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

1. Name: Jake
2. Aliases: Sathor, Kian, Draneer
3. Middle Name: Ray
5. Eyes: They change a lot. Most common hazel, with red band around right eye, green around left
6. Height: 6'1"
7. Location: Tidioute, Pa
8. Birthday: August 10th, 1987
9. Zodiac: Leo
10. Status: Mystic
Favorites:
11. Animals: Cat, Wolf
12. Sport: Football
13. Colors: Dark Purple
14. Song: NIN - Hurt Metallica - Harvester of Sorrow
16. Quote: I hurt myself today, To see if i still feel, I focus on the pain, The only thing that's real. -Reznor
17. Flower: Rose
18. Scent: Peace of Mind Incense
19. Movie: Lord of the Rings, Back to the Future I-III
20. Holiday: Samhain
21. Season: Fall
22. Element: Air
23. Book: Ender's Game, LOTR, Dune, The Talisman, Salem's Lot
24. Do you wear makeup?: Yep (only polish now, soon eyeliner.)
25. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: No, their rather bushy and they piss me off, maybe i will pluck them.
26. Do you look for personality or looks?: Intelligence, Personality, then Looks.
27. Perfect Girl: Cassandra, if she wasn't a user and was sincere.
Pointless Questions:
28. How many rings before you answer the phone?: As soon as the caller id shows up
29. Future Career Plans: Tattoo/Piercing Artist, Graphics Designer ect.
30. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: No.
31. Do you want kids?: Only if i find a wonderful woman to help me raise them.
32. Are you popular?: Hell no. Though if i wanted to i could be.
33. Are you pretty?: I'm sexy.
34. Do you have your own phone line?: Computer phone line, computer basically is my life.
35. Do you get along with your family?: Uhhhhh....
36. Do you have any piercings or tattoos?: Soon young one...soon...
Do you like:
37. Giving hugs?: Mmm...huggly goodness.
38. Taking walks in the rain?: Only if i'm in my trenchcoat.
39. The mall?: Can be fun with book and electronics stores/hot topic
40. To go on stage?: Sure, if i ever get good at singing.
Do you:
41. Drink?: Sure.
42. Smoke?: No.
43. Drugs?: Marijuana as a relaxation tool.
44. Eat meat?: Steak, Wings, you catch my drift?
45. Date?: Only if the girl is intelligent.
46. Sex?: Nope. Don't give a damn either.
47. Eat Sushi?: No.
48. Bake?: No.
Preferences:
49. Hot or Cold: Both
50. Lace or Satin: Lace
51. Blue or Red: Blue
52. New or Old: Old has stories, fits me well. New looks nice :p
53. Rain or Snow: Rain
54. Give or Receive: Give
55. Wool or Cotton: Cotton
56. Rose or Daisy: Rose
57. Private school or public school: Public.
58. Plain milk or chocolate milk: I like Plain
59. Celsius or Fahrenheit: Fahrenheit
60. Spring or Fall: Fall
61. Math or Art: Art
62. One pillow or two: Two
63. Dogs or cats: Cats
64. Adidas or Nike: I like boots better. Nike.
65. Coke or Pepsi: Mt. Dew
66. Oranges or apples: Apples
67. Deaf or blind: Blind.
68. Pool or hot tub: Pool
69. Blonde or Brunette: Black
70. Guys or girls: Girls are dating material. Guys with anime bodies are sexy.
71. Tall or Short: Short girls, Guys my height.
72. TV or Radio: Books
Personal Stance on:
73. Homosexuality: Bi, leaning towards hetero
74. Brand-names: Fuck brand-names
75. Abortion: Yup.
76. Religion: The christian god is an asshole. Go Goddess and God !!
77. Animal-rights: Only if their in danger of being utterly eradicated.
78. Love at first sight: Lust
79. God: Two of em'
80. Aliens: Yep.
81. Horoscopes: Sure, but just reading one makes your subconscious alter the outcome of the day.
82. Heaven: Hells no.
83. Hell: Heavens no.
84. Reincarnation: Yeah
85. Transvestites: Uhm...
86. Pop Music: Ew.
87. Rap: Suxx0rs. (Eminem suxx0rs too, jenn)
88. 80's Music: Can be alright.
89. Punk: Depends on how trendy the stupid singer is -grumbles about new found glory-
Other Stuff:
91. What's the best part of the body?: Curves
93. Biggest fears: Being forgotten by those i care/d for
94. Do you live in the moment?: I try.
95. Do you care about looks?: Yeah, i'm narcissistic
96. Do you like your handwriting?: No, it's cryptic
97. Obsession: Psionics
98. Looking forward to: Getting away from here, trying to live my life the way i want too.
99. Favorite Weather: 70 degrees, soft wind, sun shining, fall.
100. Do you ever wish you were somebody else?: No

Comments

Re: Whoooo....

[hav.livejournal.com]

Matt's face? Wow, ironically you and I are on the same page. I've got a Matt I'd love to beat the crap out of, but I'm above that.

Look, my man. I may be hacking my lungs up from coughting, but you, like me, need to step off this negative vibe before it kills you. Me...Well, I've got a shot, but I think I'll be getting a lot lower for the next few days. It's a long story, but the gist of it be I lost four friends tonight.

Re: Whoooo....

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Heh, it killing me wouldn't matter much. Sure, i have a date to the dance this friday now...but it doesn't change the fact cass was using me all along, or seemingly was. She found new friends, and left me to die. You see, and now i understand revenge there isn't going to get me anywhere...so i'm just going to try to make her have to deal with the effects of what she's done to me.

Matt started being nice again when he noticed no one was laughing when he was being an asshole to me. Doesn't change the fact he used me, abused me, threw me away, and then tried to make everyone hate me FOR THE SECOND TIME. He gets no third.

Re: Whoooo....

[hav.livejournal.com]

Callously put, that's life. Better harden yourself to it now, because so far it's going to get a lot worse.

I cut the number of friends I have in half last night. By the end of the week, we'll see.

I am not in a good way right now.

Re: Whoooo....

[sathor.livejournal.com]

-comforts- Heh...i'de rather not be hardened. makes it easier to give out affection.