I can't get over it
Jan. 16th, 2010 05:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorI can't get over how awesome Obscurity is. I know, there's a million things people could bitch about with regards to it. They could say it's not clean enough, they could say it's too repetitive or not complicated enough, but I just can't find anything fucking wrong with it. It's a perfect expression and it's like I'm staring at the face of god while simultaneously hearing his breath as the climaxes occur.
I've never been this attracted to something I've done.
But I'm really starting to wonder, am I just convincing myself I am good at this? I really love this track, I really do...I don't see what is separating it from what is "popular" and for that matter, with a lot of what I'm starting to do, the line is beginning to blur in my mind, to my ears.
But nothing else is blurring. I'm still just as unpopular as ever, although I have to admit the past week I was getting about a hundred plays a day - but that's a result of me individually adding people and asking them to listen.
It's not that I -need- to be popular, I just want God to tell me that what I'm doing here is beautiful in his eyes, you know? I want to know that what I am doing here is meaning, has meaning, that it is reflecting something timeless and powerful, immaculate.
I've never been this attracted to something I've done.
But I'm really starting to wonder, am I just convincing myself I am good at this? I really love this track, I really do...I don't see what is separating it from what is "popular" and for that matter, with a lot of what I'm starting to do, the line is beginning to blur in my mind, to my ears.
But nothing else is blurring. I'm still just as unpopular as ever, although I have to admit the past week I was getting about a hundred plays a day - but that's a result of me individually adding people and asking them to listen.
It's not that I -need- to be popular, I just want God to tell me that what I'm doing here is beautiful in his eyes, you know? I want to know that what I am doing here is meaning, has meaning, that it is reflecting something timeless and powerful, immaculate.
