-Fucked- -Up-
Jan. 1st, 2010 09:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorI had such a blast last night.
I had plenty of opportunity to practice just about everything I wanted to with complete strangers. Saw a lot of old friends as well.
I actually ended up kinda -gaming- this one girl. How do I know I did well?
As she was leaving at the end of the night, she kinda grabbed me and I turned looked and smiled you know, and she says, "it was nice meeting you" -balls- (of course I didn't give out my name, I was pretty toast to be honest) and I was like, "what's your name?" and she gives it, (I hadn't asked yet, because I figured I'd have a re-entry later on one way or another, her coming to me made it easy) but I kept the convo going a little while longer. Came to find out she was staying at an old classmate's place - but she said, "I'm here with Jared from Warren" and then I was like, ahh, yeah, knew that - so I go, "Oh, I didn't see you with him all night?" she laughed, "Why don't you come back to Tiff's place, we have plenty to drink?" And I go, "Ahh, but you're not single!" which would be a close of a kind. I got an invitation just like that from a complete stranger somewhere else. Yeahhhh.
Now just for the fucking record, I'm beginning to see the concept of a COLD set and a WARM set. She was -warm- as fuck. I don't know if anyone else had warmed her up or what. It was me and my friend D talking to her for a good half hour at least.
There's another girl that was there, my sister's age - from her class in fact - that's almost fucking married to a guy that's a year or two younger than me...would've never imagined her with him, but if they are a good match that's great. On the other hand if she's just with him because he works at one of the two places locally that's half decent (which he does) that's kinda fucked up. The reason I mention her is because she was undressing me with her eyes all fucking night.
I take a look at the culture of my hometown and it's pretty bleh. I can't wait to get out of here, honestly. It'll be a little different not having a shitload of people I can fall back on when the night isn't going well, but I like the idea of being in that situation of complete vulnerability. Really though, I think that it's more of an illusion - that vulnerability. The reality is if you want to give, people pick up on that. That's what everyone wants - a giver.
I had plenty of opportunity to practice just about everything I wanted to with complete strangers. Saw a lot of old friends as well.
I actually ended up kinda -gaming- this one girl. How do I know I did well?
As she was leaving at the end of the night, she kinda grabbed me and I turned looked and smiled you know, and she says, "it was nice meeting you" -balls- (of course I didn't give out my name, I was pretty toast to be honest) and I was like, "what's your name?" and she gives it, (I hadn't asked yet, because I figured I'd have a re-entry later on one way or another, her coming to me made it easy) but I kept the convo going a little while longer. Came to find out she was staying at an old classmate's place - but she said, "I'm here with Jared from Warren" and then I was like, ahh, yeah, knew that - so I go, "Oh, I didn't see you with him all night?" she laughed, "Why don't you come back to Tiff's place, we have plenty to drink?" And I go, "Ahh, but you're not single!" which would be a close of a kind. I got an invitation just like that from a complete stranger somewhere else. Yeahhhh.
Now just for the fucking record, I'm beginning to see the concept of a COLD set and a WARM set. She was -warm- as fuck. I don't know if anyone else had warmed her up or what. It was me and my friend D talking to her for a good half hour at least.
There's another girl that was there, my sister's age - from her class in fact - that's almost fucking married to a guy that's a year or two younger than me...would've never imagined her with him, but if they are a good match that's great. On the other hand if she's just with him because he works at one of the two places locally that's half decent (which he does) that's kinda fucked up. The reason I mention her is because she was undressing me with her eyes all fucking night.
I take a look at the culture of my hometown and it's pretty bleh. I can't wait to get out of here, honestly. It'll be a little different not having a shitload of people I can fall back on when the night isn't going well, but I like the idea of being in that situation of complete vulnerability. Really though, I think that it's more of an illusion - that vulnerability. The reality is if you want to give, people pick up on that. That's what everyone wants - a giver.
