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I've quit smoking before - I'm on my fourth day this time, and am almost out of chewing tobacco (which I have used less and less since I stopped smoking completely.) And as per usual I'm experiencing some pretty significant frustration/confusion etc. that comes and goes. Hot flashes. Anger. Boredom. I've pretty much locked myself in my room trying to keep myself occupied 24/7. Quitting this time seems worse than the last time. Much more severe withdrawals.
Last night I had a short burst (a few seconds) of auditory hallucination (sirens) but my headphones were on and I'm wondering about some audio file being hidden in a webpage :P At any rate, it seems to me that most of the side-effects of quitting smoking are borderline, if not absolute analogues, to temporary psychosis. There's people online who claim they actually had a full blown mental breakdown some time after quitting.
Things they don't tell you when you start smoking.
The worst part about all of it is that to be honest, I wish I could keep smoking. I wish it wasn't so expensive. I wish it didn't virtually guarantee (what is it, one in three chance?) of getting emphysema, COPD or lung cancer. I never expected I would live long enough to experience any of those issues, but the reality is I don't know how long I'm going to live...and if I do live that long, I sure as hell don't want to be on an oxygen mask or incapable of exercising.
Hopefully I can keep this going. The next few days will be rough because I will have zero nicotine in my bloodstream. I'm going to have to abstain from alcohol for awhile as well...something like three months, they say.
Last night I had a short burst (a few seconds) of auditory hallucination (sirens) but my headphones were on and I'm wondering about some audio file being hidden in a webpage :P At any rate, it seems to me that most of the side-effects of quitting smoking are borderline, if not absolute analogues, to temporary psychosis. There's people online who claim they actually had a full blown mental breakdown some time after quitting.
Things they don't tell you when you start smoking.
The worst part about all of it is that to be honest, I wish I could keep smoking. I wish it wasn't so expensive. I wish it didn't virtually guarantee (what is it, one in three chance?) of getting emphysema, COPD or lung cancer. I never expected I would live long enough to experience any of those issues, but the reality is I don't know how long I'm going to live...and if I do live that long, I sure as hell don't want to be on an oxygen mask or incapable of exercising.
Hopefully I can keep this going. The next few days will be rough because I will have zero nicotine in my bloodstream. I'm going to have to abstain from alcohol for awhile as well...something like three months, they say.
