Today went better than expected. The one person I -really- didn't want to deal with wasn't at work (is possibly at state prison, I won't go into details - and if he is it is probably both terrible for him...but good for the company.) Good person deep down, but full of issues and has had way too many DUIs...and seemingly has no conscience because of his disease (alcoholism.) I really hope the best for him...but based on what I've heard he is very likely put away for a year.
I was able to stay busy all day, and it looks like there's more than enough work for tomorrow as well. They've been short handed the entire time I've been gone, not just because of me. So that's a positive.
I feel "better" about things right now. Maybe the time off is what I really needed - maybe I can stick around a bit longer. Who knows. This is why I never make definitive plans...I would rather just feel things out as they come...but always be prepared to do what I have to do for my health and well-being. College has been a scary proposition for me for a long time - mainly because of the expenses involved (travel, means I need a vehicle and to pay for it...housing...tuition...and the loss of income.) But also because I'm not sure I'd be okay with living anywhere where my degree would actually be worth something. I've lived my whole life in rural PA...living in Alaska for awhile wasn't much different...and big cities are just not my cup of tea...and neither are four lane roads. I realize I'm probably selling myself short...and probably dooming myself to singledom because there's this little issue of moderate or big sized fish in a little pond...but I'm also close to family...here to help when they need it...and I have nothing else.
I accomplished basically nothing today after work. Three hours of sleep, so when I got home, I hopped on EQ Landmark for about an hour, ate dinner, worked out, and flirted with my sister's friend a little before crashing for two hours. Now I'm wide awake, but it probably won't be long before I'm back in bed. Danielle (the friend) was definitely trying to make me feel good about myself, "I can't believe how big your arms are getting!" But it's like, really - I just worked out. It goes away in a half hour. I've been lifting for a little over three months now and there are definitely results, but it's not much. I'm 6'3" and 180lbs, still lanky, but quite a bit more defined than I was. I can overhead press 100lbs seated, and I can max out my bar for benching/bent over rows/deadlifts/squats (155lbs.) I would like to be able to go closer to 150 overhead and 200-240 for the rest. I still can't curl much more than 80lbs but that's still substantial for me. I never thought I'd say this, but Arnold Schwarzenegger is a bit of an idol anymore. Yeah, he did steroids, but I think it's awesome that our bodies are capable of such substantial adaptation and evolution. I also think sculpting ones body helps to bring into balance our mind and spirit, and I've certainly neglected my physical vessel for too long.
I think writing in here every day is helping me a lot, too. It'd be nice to go back to the days where I had numerous people reading this and a little community going on...but I guess that's how it goes. It feels like the older I get, the less of a network I really have. Seems counter-intuitive.
I was able to stay busy all day, and it looks like there's more than enough work for tomorrow as well. They've been short handed the entire time I've been gone, not just because of me. So that's a positive.
I feel "better" about things right now. Maybe the time off is what I really needed - maybe I can stick around a bit longer. Who knows. This is why I never make definitive plans...I would rather just feel things out as they come...but always be prepared to do what I have to do for my health and well-being. College has been a scary proposition for me for a long time - mainly because of the expenses involved (travel, means I need a vehicle and to pay for it...housing...tuition...and the loss of income.) But also because I'm not sure I'd be okay with living anywhere where my degree would actually be worth something. I've lived my whole life in rural PA...living in Alaska for awhile wasn't much different...and big cities are just not my cup of tea...and neither are four lane roads. I realize I'm probably selling myself short...and probably dooming myself to singledom because there's this little issue of moderate or big sized fish in a little pond...but I'm also close to family...here to help when they need it...and I have nothing else.
I accomplished basically nothing today after work. Three hours of sleep, so when I got home, I hopped on EQ Landmark for about an hour, ate dinner, worked out, and flirted with my sister's friend a little before crashing for two hours. Now I'm wide awake, but it probably won't be long before I'm back in bed. Danielle (the friend) was definitely trying to make me feel good about myself, "I can't believe how big your arms are getting!" But it's like, really - I just worked out. It goes away in a half hour. I've been lifting for a little over three months now and there are definitely results, but it's not much. I'm 6'3" and 180lbs, still lanky, but quite a bit more defined than I was. I can overhead press 100lbs seated, and I can max out my bar for benching/bent over rows/deadlifts/squats (155lbs.) I would like to be able to go closer to 150 overhead and 200-240 for the rest. I still can't curl much more than 80lbs but that's still substantial for me. I never thought I'd say this, but Arnold Schwarzenegger is a bit of an idol anymore. Yeah, he did steroids, but I think it's awesome that our bodies are capable of such substantial adaptation and evolution. I also think sculpting ones body helps to bring into balance our mind and spirit, and I've certainly neglected my physical vessel for too long.
I think writing in here every day is helping me a lot, too. It'd be nice to go back to the days where I had numerous people reading this and a little community going on...but I guess that's how it goes. It feels like the older I get, the less of a network I really have. Seems counter-intuitive.