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End of the Week
May. 8th, 2011 10:48 pmI found myself at the bar Saturday night...it was the only thing I did this weekend. My sister and Kayla coaxed me out. However Kayla neglected to even say hi to me for the duration of my stay. She said she was really fucked up - and "only saw me once." But you know, yet another example of women mistreating me. I wasn't even looking at this as a date or anything of the sort. When am I going to catch a break, exactly?
I'm working hard on skin care and general hygiene. Also continuing to put on weight. I would really like to hit 180-190. I think that's right about where I should be at 6'4" and will give me plenty of room to work with muscle-wise if I want to bulk and tone.
New picture for the livejournal. My facebook has a larger version of it. For those of you who still read this, you can just send me a message if you want my full name. It's a good angle, I guess...i've always had a bit of a weird body-type, though. I look like an endomorph from the side, and an ectomorph from the front. Best of both worlds, maybe? My neck looks ridiculous in this picture and to be honest, I'm glad. Never before have I felt really good in my skin. At the least, it's been a long time. It's taken me years to recover from both of those breakups physically. Now maybe the mental aspect will follow...if women start treating me with some fraggin' respect, that is.
I took a single hit of marijuana, to remember what I've been missing. Not much, actually. I'd much rather do more intense hallucinogens that actually have some real cognitive/spiritual impact. As far as I can tell there's no way a single hit will make me go over the 50 ng/ml threshold on the DOT test even if I was tested the day after. So I should be fine. If I'm not, I'll take it in stride, and find something else. But I'm not too concerned.
Lots of music work over the weekend and week. I've been piecing together how the trance/dance gurus make their stuff sound so well produced. Getting very, very close to the methodology (or at least, a methodology.) There's a lot of synth stacking involved, a lot of tweaking, a lot of EQing, a lot of compression, a lot of processing. For a lot of the tracks I've been listening to at di.fm, it seems they aren't even all that complicated...in actuality, probably only two-four tones being played simultaneously. Two very often, bass line and a lead. Lots of atmospheric noise, and maybe a chording pad in the backdrop that can't really be heard. But they hit so hard, sound so good, and really make you want to dance. That's the idea with that genre, for sure...and I want to get my head wrapped around it as best as I can. It's fun to make it and play it, which is a big bonus...I think a big part of the reason I haven't been as motivated and creative is because I was trying SO HARD to make music that ultimately I really wasn't having fun making...I need to stick with genres that energize me. At least until I exhaust the energies there, and go to something different for awhile.
A new work week coming up. I wonder what will be in store? I helped take out and re-align a coupling on a hydraulic pump for the Rail King (a rail-car tugger) Friday. Then I helped take out the steering box on the combo pickup truck. The thing was absolutely trashed. I'd like to stay on in the garage, and get to know those guys better...not to mention learn a shit load of useful life skills in the meantime. But who knows where they'll put me tomorrow.
Time for bed...almost 11. I generally don't stay up this late, but I slept an awful lot over the weekend.
I'm working hard on skin care and general hygiene. Also continuing to put on weight. I would really like to hit 180-190. I think that's right about where I should be at 6'4" and will give me plenty of room to work with muscle-wise if I want to bulk and tone.
New picture for the livejournal. My facebook has a larger version of it. For those of you who still read this, you can just send me a message if you want my full name. It's a good angle, I guess...i've always had a bit of a weird body-type, though. I look like an endomorph from the side, and an ectomorph from the front. Best of both worlds, maybe? My neck looks ridiculous in this picture and to be honest, I'm glad. Never before have I felt really good in my skin. At the least, it's been a long time. It's taken me years to recover from both of those breakups physically. Now maybe the mental aspect will follow...if women start treating me with some fraggin' respect, that is.
I took a single hit of marijuana, to remember what I've been missing. Not much, actually. I'd much rather do more intense hallucinogens that actually have some real cognitive/spiritual impact. As far as I can tell there's no way a single hit will make me go over the 50 ng/ml threshold on the DOT test even if I was tested the day after. So I should be fine. If I'm not, I'll take it in stride, and find something else. But I'm not too concerned.
Lots of music work over the weekend and week. I've been piecing together how the trance/dance gurus make their stuff sound so well produced. Getting very, very close to the methodology (or at least, a methodology.) There's a lot of synth stacking involved, a lot of tweaking, a lot of EQing, a lot of compression, a lot of processing. For a lot of the tracks I've been listening to at di.fm, it seems they aren't even all that complicated...in actuality, probably only two-four tones being played simultaneously. Two very often, bass line and a lead. Lots of atmospheric noise, and maybe a chording pad in the backdrop that can't really be heard. But they hit so hard, sound so good, and really make you want to dance. That's the idea with that genre, for sure...and I want to get my head wrapped around it as best as I can. It's fun to make it and play it, which is a big bonus...I think a big part of the reason I haven't been as motivated and creative is because I was trying SO HARD to make music that ultimately I really wasn't having fun making...I need to stick with genres that energize me. At least until I exhaust the energies there, and go to something different for awhile.
A new work week coming up. I wonder what will be in store? I helped take out and re-align a coupling on a hydraulic pump for the Rail King (a rail-car tugger) Friday. Then I helped take out the steering box on the combo pickup truck. The thing was absolutely trashed. I'd like to stay on in the garage, and get to know those guys better...not to mention learn a shit load of useful life skills in the meantime. But who knows where they'll put me tomorrow.
Time for bed...almost 11. I generally don't stay up this late, but I slept an awful lot over the weekend.
