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Dec. 8th, 2009 02:41 pmWent to the doctor today, for the first time in whenever...paid with credit.
Two pills and a spray for the infection on my scalp and elsewhere. I've got the same antibiotic that a friend of my mother's is taking for a blood infection after cancer surgery.
I have to go back in a month to make sure things have cleared up. Once I'm off this antibiotic, I will be talking to the doc about getting on an antibiotic maintenance regime for my acne. I used to be on tetracycline but stopped taking it when I self-diagnosed it "causing heart pains and anxiety" (my heart pains have since ceased, but they were likely due to the high blood pressure I had at the time - also caused by anxiety I have since mostly conquered.)
Well, normally doctor offices make me nervous as hell but today it was a different story. I was cool, calm, and collected - my blood pressure was a perfect 120 over 80 (it was 107 over 64 earlier in the day - after waking up, just to give you an idea of how good my overall health is.)
I think I've really destroyed my social anxiety. It all really started, I think, with that trip to Pittsburgh. The concert further pushed me.
I don't know. It's so fucking stupid. Every time I'm out by myself, the fucking world smiles at me. I'm just so fucking sick of the idea.
I asked my sis who she'd rather hit on, a guy by himself or a guy in a group of friends - she said the guy in the group of friends, which made me kinda second guess whether or not going out by yourself to have a couple drinks is a good idea. But if the world smiles at me so fucking much elsewhere, why not?
Doesn't it show strength and confidence to be able to do all kinds of things by yourself? Why is it that a man in a group of friends would be any more appealing? And for that matter, wouldn't the shier types of girls rather go up to a guy by himself, rather than a guy with other guys who might knock them down?
Two pills and a spray for the infection on my scalp and elsewhere. I've got the same antibiotic that a friend of my mother's is taking for a blood infection after cancer surgery.
I have to go back in a month to make sure things have cleared up. Once I'm off this antibiotic, I will be talking to the doc about getting on an antibiotic maintenance regime for my acne. I used to be on tetracycline but stopped taking it when I self-diagnosed it "causing heart pains and anxiety" (my heart pains have since ceased, but they were likely due to the high blood pressure I had at the time - also caused by anxiety I have since mostly conquered.)
Well, normally doctor offices make me nervous as hell but today it was a different story. I was cool, calm, and collected - my blood pressure was a perfect 120 over 80 (it was 107 over 64 earlier in the day - after waking up, just to give you an idea of how good my overall health is.)
I think I've really destroyed my social anxiety. It all really started, I think, with that trip to Pittsburgh. The concert further pushed me.
I don't know. It's so fucking stupid. Every time I'm out by myself, the fucking world smiles at me. I'm just so fucking sick of the idea.
I asked my sis who she'd rather hit on, a guy by himself or a guy in a group of friends - she said the guy in the group of friends, which made me kinda second guess whether or not going out by yourself to have a couple drinks is a good idea. But if the world smiles at me so fucking much elsewhere, why not?
Doesn't it show strength and confidence to be able to do all kinds of things by yourself? Why is it that a man in a group of friends would be any more appealing? And for that matter, wouldn't the shier types of girls rather go up to a guy by himself, rather than a guy with other guys who might knock them down?
