Masochistic tendencies.

I thought about it today.

I can't really say I didn't like the drama, and that craziness my life involved for a few months because of her.

I know it hurt, but there is something appealing about that, whatever it may be.


I remember going back through my entries not too long ago, and finding a writing about a dream I had. In it, there was a goddess like figure that said to me, "If you told me I make you hurt to make me hurt, I would understand."

And I understand that, I really do.

Sometimes it just sucks knowing that you are here to learn, not to get what you want.

I know what I want, and it's definitely not her...problem is, I haven't physically come in contact with what I want yet.

Maybe mentally...maybe psychically...but not physically.

Still waiting here, still looking, still searching. Or hoping and praying for one I already know to reveal themselves.

Been really busy lately with respect to social life.

Can almost sing all of With_Teeth dead on now, and it's improving my personal voice very much so. Going back to my roots has helped a lot.

Think that's it for now.