It doesn't make any sense.

Honestly, I don't know that many people who have stayed single for extended periods. Actually...maybe I do know a few /men/. But you know what? The women I know? The girls? Only a small percentage actually go without being with someone for an extended period after having their first relationship.

Why exactly is this? Is there some kind of horrible sexist skew with regards to relationships, where girls ALWAYS have someone wanting to get with them, but the men, they hardly ever do?

Is it because it's more socially acceptable for women to have guy friends, and these guy friends end up being future boyfriends, than it is for men to have female friends? (Or maybe more difficult for men to have them?)

Or am I simply drowning in the masochistic prison I have crafted for myself to live in?

Because this has been a relatively extended period. And no matter how many times I'm told...by all kinds of people...there's nothing undesirable about me, I begin to wonder.

I can hope it's just a pattern of living I'm stuck in right now that makes it so hard, but if it is a pattern, I have the added problem of trying to figure out a way to break it.

I look at my user pic and I think...I'm not that bad fucking looking, WTF is wrong here?

/rant