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I went to the rink tonight, and I had a lot more fun than I expected to have...I suppose I have forgotten what it was like back nearly a year ago,

It's nice to get out though. Seriously.

Too lazy to explain anything more than that. Good night :P

I'm gonna lay it out in the open...

I don't think I can handle a relationship right now...maybe it's my age, maybe it's the way I think and feel, maybe it's my free spirit...and maybe it'll always be like this, I really don't know...

But a relationship, as in that conventional 'going steady' whatnot stuff, doesn't appeal to me...at all.

Not that I flirt madly with everyone I see...quite the opposite. It's just that it doesn't feel right or something...I can't even explain it.

It feels like the world is shattering all my assumptions steadily this week, making me have to figure everything out again...I really know absolutely nothing.

I have always had 'plans' after i get out of here...but what is the worth? If one isn't truly enjoying their life, how can they consider themselves alive? Of course, I don't know if I will enjoy myself or not in college, but the fact is...if I do go philosophy major...unless I'm going for a professor position someday, it's not going to make me any money.

So I'd be stuck working whatever job I can hold wherever to keep myself going...but what's wrong with that as long as it gives me the money I need to survive and a bit extra for whatever else I need?

I just don't know...I still have a year to grow up before I have to make these decisions, but it seems like they are staring me down and winning for the moment.

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My old carhartt sweatshirt/coat smells like Valerie...

Mmmm

Now I'm even freaking myself out -slap-

Aieeeeeee