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Why does everyone expect me to be happy-go-lucky and talkative everytime they say hi to me?

This person...hasn't talked to me for weeks and weeks and weeks...more like months...messages me out of nowhere, asks me how i am...(Which is idle questioning considering SHE DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK how i am normally) i answer idly, and i don't really talk much because honestly...i don't care...you don't know who i am...you're just another Tidioute person trying to be nice.

So she gets mad at me...I ask her what am i supposed to say then after she says i don't talk a lot...and then she says, 'Well, i haven't talked to you in awhile, asking how i am would be nice...'

Fucking stupid games.

Stupid

Stupid

Stupid

Games.

I don't give a fuck. It's your fault you haven't talked to me in awhile. You want to be my friend, try talking to me more than you do, fucking gods.

I'm not going to do what you want me to do just to make you happy.

And in any case...what the hell people...
I know a lot of people that get mad when i don't message them when they're online on msn.

Try messaging me sometime.
I have to message most of the people i want to talk to first all of the fucking time.
You expect me to have to message you everytime...think again...make an effort to show that you actually care, and I'll make one as well.

/rant

Conscious Theory

(This was a recently finished 'project' of mine. It may be rather simple, but the main reason i wrote it is to define the fourth conscious, because the first three are obvious.)

After pondering for a time, I have concluded that there are three consciousnesses to the human being's mind. For lack of a better terminology, I name them these, with an analogy to help explain better.

Sub conscious - The Hard Drive of your mind

The sub conscious knows all and everything that is you. It is you in a purer form than your external self. It remembers everything that has ever occurred, and only some parts can be accessed through the

Conscious - The Document History

Like the Document History in a Windows Operating System, the Conscious contains much of what has been recent in the events in your life. The more impact a situation had, the longer it stays in the Conscious mind. However, it is always changing. New thoughts replace old ones, just as new files replace the old in the history, and sometimes old thoughts resurface again.

Base conscious - The File Windows

These are your surface thoughts, the very thing you are hearing in your mind as you read this now. The more surface thoughts you have at once, the harder it is to volley them all at once just as multitasking gets more difficult the more windows you have open.

Also, there is another probable conscious:

High conscious - The Internet of your mind

This last conscious is the most intriguing of them all. It would seem, with as many people that now practice mysticism (Astral projection, Chakra exercise, Meditation, etc.) as witnesses that there is a higher self that exists. This self is most likely your very soul - which is one with the all - Buddha, The Goddess, etc. - and therefore can peer into the future and past and upon planes that exist out side of the physical self and mind. It is like this that it is an Internet - a connection to something beyond the self, and at the same time the connection to one's self is still there, un-severed. This conscious helps explain the idea of quantum theory in the human sense as well. We are both part of everything and ourselves at once.

And on a less serious note (Stolen from Mahasuriaria...you cute thing)

How to play:

Leave a comment answering the questions.

Post the questions in your journal asking others to answer them, for you.
(Not that I actually think any of you will take this, heh)

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. Do you consider me a good friend?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Would you make a move on me?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day?