I had this weird idea today

[sathor]

It's been almost a month and the state has yet to pass it's yearly budget. I know people who aren't getting paychecks - how are they supposed to survive?

The legislators and the governor are sitting pretty - there's no pressure on them to do anything. Even if the people pressured, they aren't required listen or to give a shit. They only have to worry about doing their job.

Why not? Why shouldn't I just drive down there and start a ruckus? When was the last time any one individual went and did something like that, just to see what would happen?

I haven't seen a single protest at the legislature yet. I haven't seen mobs of people, as there rightfully should be, nor have I seen even a small group. I see gatherings of people at their places of work. That's not getting any message across.



Besides that, the positive phase is waning a bit. Can't really help it. You can conceptualize positivity in a world of filth only for so long before it exhausts your psychic reserves.

I would like to stay positive, but I have to see more reciprocation. I'm sick of seeing people finding it out of the ordinary when a stranger walks up to them to get to know them. I'm also sick of women who apparently have such a fucked up ideal of a man built into their skull, they aren't willing to give just anyone a chance, even if that person is as unforgettable as I am (and I am...I can't think of a single professor that doesn't remember me, for instance, and just about anyone that was ever in my classes in college remembers me if they just happen across me.)

So what, I'm unforgettable, I'm in great shape, I'm intelligent, sensitive, caring. Okay, what the fuck is wrong with people again?

I don't want to start preaching that humans are fucked again, I really don't. Show me some proof they aren't. I've taken the first steps. I won't keep doing it unless I see something in response.

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[mystic-waves.livejournal.com]

I know it's tough to stay positive in a world of filth esp when you are lonely. But perhaps your looking at the larger picture instead of the small details. Zoom in on your daily experience. Even someone picking up litter can refresh the positive mood perhaps for me. I try and find small insignificant things to keep it. As small as a father teaching her daughter how to ride a bike in the summer sun. It is very hard to not get discouraged by the filth, I know, but when we sit and bitch about...nothing changes and it just adds more negative energy. So you didn't see one act of kindness today? Be that act. Smile at someone as large as possible and know that your smile effected them in a good way because chances are it did. Talk to a lonely homeless guy (always works to set my mental state to counting blessings). Or maybe as simple as send good thoughts to the struggling people in the world. If it's too difficult to find in humans, look for it in animals humans interact with. I talk to the squirrels...little chittering sounds. They know. The listen. They react. I swear. It always puts a smile on my face and gives me a happy moment to look back on for that day. I don't care if people walking by give me looks like I'm crazy, and they do...but I effected them. Maybe I made someone smile. Sometimes I will talk to plants too, but their reactions are always more subtle. I don't know. Find something that you can add to the world that is positive when you feel like this. It doesn't have to be human-human interactions. You effect elevate our species by interacting with the other beings of the world around you in a positive manner also. Only actions that help reverse the filth. I think you know that by now... :p Don't give up the quest for positive reactions so soon, these things take time to accumulate. Your strong, you have a good heart. Follow it.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Molly, the cat that was added to our household probably a few months ago, caught a chipmunk outside one day after work. She was playing with it, it was still alive. I got pretty mad about it, and after trying to stop her for a little while by holding her down, the chipmunk literally ran up my leg (even though I told it to run away) and stayed on it for a good while. When it came off, though, Molly still got it...

She's a sweetheart really, just has that vicious, cut into you with no remorse, female side...

[freefall127.livejournal.com]

you need more friends who are girls, we're really not all that bad.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Dead breed...

Hard to find those.

[freefall127.livejournal.com]

so by implication i'm either 100% heartless bitch or dead. great choices i got there eh?

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Hahaha...

Relax :)

I can't say I've met a lot of really "good" women in my lifetime.

It doesn't mean they exist, but for whatever reason they either a: aren't attracted to me or b: are attracted to really bad guys that treat them like shit :P

[sathor.livejournal.com]

doesn't mean they don't exist, i mean...haha

[freefall127.livejournal.com]

what do you want in a woman? what makes a "good" woman?

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I want a woman that has self confidence, knows how to get what she wants, is forward, doesn't expect gender stereotypes to hold true, and doesn't expect typical modes of social norm with regards to meeting for the first time (I have a hard time trying to fit myself into the paradigm most people function within, so obviously you can not expect me to color inside the lines)

Ability to think and express is pretty necessary as well :P

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Do you have aim or msn? :P

[freefall127.livejournal.com]

aim: ithemultitude