Pointless

[sathor]

Yep, this has got to be the worst fucking day of my life. You'd figure after four months of ignoring a girl and trying to get her to stop liking you would make her stop liking you. And well, you thought wrong, if you are thinking of the girl i am.

Now sure. My chances are slim in any manner. But this girl goes as far as to tell another (who will probably read this) that she cannot get any closer than being my friend because this girl (the one i dislike) likes me too much.

Doesn't that sound a bit irrational? immature? just plain ignorant? To even just /tell/ someone else you can't get closer than friends, if you wanted to, at risk of losing a friend? Gods, i don't know what to say. I want to slice my arm up good and yet i want to sit blankly and stare at a wall for hours because i'm speechless. This is totally wrong. I don't deserve this. I don't deserve a possibility ripped out of my hands, because someone cannot get over the fact i don't like them.

And then again, maybe i freaked the girl i like out after i found this out. I hope not. This is so utterly pointless.

Comments

[darklifejae.livejournal.com]

i am sorry -- i know the situation all to well ::grimaces:: but NEWAYZ -- please don't cut...cutting may feel good but....::sighs:: i don't know i've been better about cutting myself but i don't like my friends hurting themselves.

[chiklette.livejournal.com]

vicious loops. Hey, all i can say is that it's better than leading the girl on, and at least you guys are still friends. She should at least appreciate the fact that you guys are friends...even though you dislike her (i think i'm getting the story right...? i can't tell). girls are annoying, and it takes them longer time to realize things. so hang in there. you definately don't know who i am, i thought i'd let you know.

i was just surfing the web for art work, and i stumbled upon your site, and saw that you had a live journal like half of this world, and decided to check it out. <~ so thats me.

~chiklette

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm trying to make things work out...but it seems doubtful at the moment.