Rock bottom.

[sathor]

Yep, i hit rock bottom again. Just like all of my good friends before her, Khepri betrayed me. I could be over-exaggerating, but i doubt it. Things have taken a turn for the worse once more.
I cut myself a lot last night, i really needed the release. But i can't even type anymore right now, i'm too filled with anger and sorrow. Off i go to school for the last 3 hours, then maybe i'll be cooled off a little bit.

Comments

[ryhian.livejournal.com]

That sucks man.. So tell me a little bit about cutting yourself. I'm guessing its just sorta like a way to get out your feelings and problems by causing temporary pain to yourself? I'm sorta fasinated by it, hehe.

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

I was facinated by it ever since cassandra showed the idea to me. But all it involves is hurting yourself to temporarily release emotion i guess. It's a bad way to do it, but atleast it helps.

[lilacwolf.livejournal.com]

Sure it helps. Hurts what's on the outside to try and kill the thing on the inside that makes you feel like dying. But there's nothing worse, tummy-twisting, and scary as someone else (parent/teacher/counselor) finding out and taking it the wrong way. I know this by experience. And once you do it, it's always there. If something goes wrong in your life, it's easier to do it every time, but it always hurts both the outside and inside more every time the blade touches your skin.
Don't let yourself get hurt so much that you want to die because of it.

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

I've only really wanted to die twice in my life. When Matt told me after 3 years of friendship "I was using you." and when Cassandra left (haven't heard from her ever again) but i managed to get through. I remember going to the doctor once, and he stared at the scars for a moment, but didn't say anything, luckily. But those scars always remind me of the tough times i managed to get through.

Son, this cuttin' thing I don't rightly like.

[hav.livejournal.com]

Heya bud,

As you can see, I got this thingamabobber workin' all right and everything. Of course, I can't sleep until the next Vicodin dose takes hold, so I figured I'd reply.

Boy was I surprised to see this. It's still a day old now, but I'm a little wary of cutting one's self to release the bad vibes.

Of course, I've tried it before. It didn't work as well for me, that's why video games are just so damned nice.

Anyway, peace out. I think it's kicking in.

Re: Son, this cuttin' thing I don't rightly like.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I don't like it either. And i don't do it often, just when i need to. Cool sunglasses, man. ^.^