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Nov. 25th, 2003 01:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorI want to ask a question...
Why does my sadness hurt people?
My sister has been asking me, "Are you okay?" for the past couple days, and I didn't think that much of it.
Anyway, she comes in the door tonight at like 1:00 am, and after doing a few things walks out and starts talking to me.
"Whenever I look at you all I see is sadness."
"What do you need to be happy?"
Whatever I need, none of you can give it to me.
"Why?"
Because I don't really care about materialistic things
Then she goes off on some speech about if it's about girls, someday i'll learn it doesn't matter, and that girls only want one thing from guys, and guys only want one thing from girls, and relationship only brings a lot of bitching. Sometimes there's good she says but it's all the same.
How does this help me?
She keeps telling me she loves me and it makes her feel bad that I'm down.
But damn, you're not the one living with it, please get over it.
I can't stop being sad occasionally damnit. And no one should be getting taken down with me. I never lay my problems on her, never talk to her about how down I am (And I'm normally not down...-sigh) I just don't understand.
I can understand caring. But don't let it get to the point where it's going to hurt you if someone else is hurting. Especially if you can't control it.
And she can't.
Nor can anyone else.
-sigh-
Why does my sadness hurt people?
My sister has been asking me, "Are you okay?" for the past couple days, and I didn't think that much of it.
Anyway, she comes in the door tonight at like 1:00 am, and after doing a few things walks out and starts talking to me.
"Whenever I look at you all I see is sadness."
"What do you need to be happy?"
Whatever I need, none of you can give it to me.
"Why?"
Because I don't really care about materialistic things
Then she goes off on some speech about if it's about girls, someday i'll learn it doesn't matter, and that girls only want one thing from guys, and guys only want one thing from girls, and relationship only brings a lot of bitching. Sometimes there's good she says but it's all the same.
How does this help me?
She keeps telling me she loves me and it makes her feel bad that I'm down.
But damn, you're not the one living with it, please get over it.
I can't stop being sad occasionally damnit. And no one should be getting taken down with me. I never lay my problems on her, never talk to her about how down I am (And I'm normally not down...-sigh) I just don't understand.
I can understand caring. But don't let it get to the point where it's going to hurt you if someone else is hurting. Especially if you can't control it.
And she can't.
Nor can anyone else.
-sigh-
