The Bills Game
Nov. 17th, 2003 11:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorSo, I went to the bills game up in buffalo yesterday.
You know, it wasn't an enjoyable experience. At all.
The entire beginning of my day, before we even started going up, was horrible. I could get out of my stupid depressed mindset, I hated the fact I had to be around so much of my family that was going at once, I hated it. HATED it. I'm not supposed to hate damnit.
We get up there, setup so we can tailgate for awhile, and i put on some of my bills garb to represent my love for the team i've loved for a long, long time.
And the only thing my mom has to say is, "We need a picture of you."
Fuck you.
"You're only making a big deal out of it because I don't do it all the time. Everyone else is dressed in Bills garb now, I don't see you asking to take pictures of them."
Fuck.
I hate it. I'm different, but they can't accept the fucking fact. THEY CAN'T FUCKING GET OVER IT. "That looks a lot better than all of that black you wear. You should do that more often." FUCK YOU
I hate this. I'm not going to change for society, but all they ever do is try to piss me off with their stupid comments. There is so much tension between me and my family anymore it's insane, because none of them can truly get over it, and I know they all talk about it when I'm not around. Example: At a party two years ago I wouldn't go into the main section, i just sat off to the side and worked on some drawings. So my mom decided to drag me in there to show everyone how i looked so much older. Yeah fucking right. Older.
We get to our seats, whatever. I don't plan on getting up again until we're ready to leave, my friend D sits next to me. They're pretty good seats, about 6 rows up from the field, and it's almost like you can reach out and touch the players. But what's the big deal anyway? I'm not as excited as the rest of the people that haven't been this close, because I see the guys on the field as people too. My family sees them as special. So does probably 50% or more of this damned stadium. They're just people getting paid millions to play a game. Per year. Whoop-de-do.
So, after awhile, the people in front are getting pretty damn drunk. Okay, so the one guy right in front of us was pretty funny, I have to admit. On a bad play, "Great play, you asshole!" and he even said something that made one of the houston texans actually look at him from the ground for a second. Hah. But still, what's the point? The other team is getting paid millions too, and the games are most-likely mostly staged.
It's still fun for me to watch though.
But there's now about five girls, they're all pretty good looking, drunk off their asses two rows up. This is the part that made my day go to hell. Three of them start making out at once for a moment, i look around...and probably 20 seats in all directions of guys are looking at them, and not the game.
Do you know what would happen if three guys did that?
They would probably try to report them to security or something, or get stuff thrown at them, or get into a fight.
But no, it's okay, it's girls. It's always okay for girls to act homosexual.
Then one of them starts stripping on top of a guys shoulders, and gets down to her extremely tight undershirt. Even more rows in all directions looking at her, not the game. What the hell is wrong with this society.
Men are so driven by lust. Men are so prejudiced against male homosexuals, but they have not a damn thing to say to girl homosexuals. I'm sick of it. I truly am. I'm totally sickened by this society.
All of the guys by these girls were getting some form of action. I understand the girls were drunk, but to ask the question...would they have done it sober? Or do I truly even know if they were drunk? Why the hell does it matter?
Because it makes me think. Am I wrong to want love and not lust?
Am I wrong to be hoping for someone to love and care for and give the same thing back to me, when maybe I should just do whatever I can to get some and be like the rest of society?
I hate this. -sighs-
You know, it wasn't an enjoyable experience. At all.
The entire beginning of my day, before we even started going up, was horrible. I could get out of my stupid depressed mindset, I hated the fact I had to be around so much of my family that was going at once, I hated it. HATED it. I'm not supposed to hate damnit.
We get up there, setup so we can tailgate for awhile, and i put on some of my bills garb to represent my love for the team i've loved for a long, long time.
And the only thing my mom has to say is, "We need a picture of you."
Fuck you.
"You're only making a big deal out of it because I don't do it all the time. Everyone else is dressed in Bills garb now, I don't see you asking to take pictures of them."
Fuck.
I hate it. I'm different, but they can't accept the fucking fact. THEY CAN'T FUCKING GET OVER IT. "That looks a lot better than all of that black you wear. You should do that more often." FUCK YOU
I hate this. I'm not going to change for society, but all they ever do is try to piss me off with their stupid comments. There is so much tension between me and my family anymore it's insane, because none of them can truly get over it, and I know they all talk about it when I'm not around. Example: At a party two years ago I wouldn't go into the main section, i just sat off to the side and worked on some drawings. So my mom decided to drag me in there to show everyone how i looked so much older. Yeah fucking right. Older.
We get to our seats, whatever. I don't plan on getting up again until we're ready to leave, my friend D sits next to me. They're pretty good seats, about 6 rows up from the field, and it's almost like you can reach out and touch the players. But what's the big deal anyway? I'm not as excited as the rest of the people that haven't been this close, because I see the guys on the field as people too. My family sees them as special. So does probably 50% or more of this damned stadium. They're just people getting paid millions to play a game. Per year. Whoop-de-do.
So, after awhile, the people in front are getting pretty damn drunk. Okay, so the one guy right in front of us was pretty funny, I have to admit. On a bad play, "Great play, you asshole!" and he even said something that made one of the houston texans actually look at him from the ground for a second. Hah. But still, what's the point? The other team is getting paid millions too, and the games are most-likely mostly staged.
It's still fun for me to watch though.
But there's now about five girls, they're all pretty good looking, drunk off their asses two rows up. This is the part that made my day go to hell. Three of them start making out at once for a moment, i look around...and probably 20 seats in all directions of guys are looking at them, and not the game.
Do you know what would happen if three guys did that?
They would probably try to report them to security or something, or get stuff thrown at them, or get into a fight.
But no, it's okay, it's girls. It's always okay for girls to act homosexual.
Then one of them starts stripping on top of a guys shoulders, and gets down to her extremely tight undershirt. Even more rows in all directions looking at her, not the game. What the hell is wrong with this society.
Men are so driven by lust. Men are so prejudiced against male homosexuals, but they have not a damn thing to say to girl homosexuals. I'm sick of it. I truly am. I'm totally sickened by this society.
All of the guys by these girls were getting some form of action. I understand the girls were drunk, but to ask the question...would they have done it sober? Or do I truly even know if they were drunk? Why the hell does it matter?
Because it makes me think. Am I wrong to want love and not lust?
Am I wrong to be hoping for someone to love and care for and give the same thing back to me, when maybe I should just do whatever I can to get some and be like the rest of society?
I hate this. -sighs-
