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[sathor]

Well, the day was slow, long, and boring. I looked at art on elfwood a ton, finding some really great artists in the process. My friend rick called me today, stating that matt might be serious about letting me back into the 2nd ed. group. But the funny part is, i dont even know if i want to. All this alone time, this depression, and just spacing myself away from all the people i thought were my friends, has made me a better person overall. Im finally not caring enough to uphold a fake image of myself for everyone to see, im finally acting like who I am everywhere. But this still isnt enough - i still search, and will always search for someone to love, and someone to love me back. Its hard without something like that, and being much older on the inside then i am on the out...i find that i need a real relationship much more then anyone my age, and possibly some people in their 20s. Thats about it, write more tomorrow.