The Druidic Experience
May. 28th, 2003 10:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorAlright, it all begins with a normal night for me...no drugs because I had been drug-free for a week, and I was quite depressed sitting here, parents were gone, no one was home.
So I decide to go outside, and I do so gladly because I was sick of the stagnant air.
It was pretty nice out at dusk really, somewhat windy, clear sky. I got my eyes accustomed to the lower light and sat down on the back of my dads truck, looking up. I started asking questions, like what exactly am i here for, and if the gods even knew i existed, or am i just another worthless human on this planet.
I got up, and walked over to the garden we have. I looked up at the sky which was starting to darken, and said loudly in my head, "I will be your faithful servant goddess if that will give me a purpose in life, a path to follow. I'll do whatever you ask of me, if I just could know if you know I exist." and there, I was told something. For a long while i disbelieved what i was told. Take a leaf, any leaf, from the forest and bring it back here, mix it with water and drink it. I figured it was just my idiotic self trying to make me seem important again. Well, I decided I had to have some faith for once instead of disbelieving everything as an illusion created by my own twisted mind. So I went up, picked a live oak leaf (still not very big) and brought it back to my house. I mixed it in with some water in a little glass, and brought it up to my mouth.
When the first drop hit my tongue, it was like a shockwave through my head, moving from the front to the back. There was a loud fuzzy noise that echoed in my head, and then my entire body started to feel like it was on fire (kinda like an energy surge...though it was calmer and seemed controlled) and tingled. When i finished it, and opened my eyes, I had this ultimate high for a few seconds, everything was distorted, my body felt displaced, and i just had a 'high' feeling. It calmed after that, but i was still somewhat high and on fire for quite awhile after...I felt great, and the depression was gone. And i then knew that the goddess did i know i exist.
So now i'm still pondering if I should start some druidic studies, as I should be a faithful servant of her as i promised.
There ya have it.
So I decide to go outside, and I do so gladly because I was sick of the stagnant air.
It was pretty nice out at dusk really, somewhat windy, clear sky. I got my eyes accustomed to the lower light and sat down on the back of my dads truck, looking up. I started asking questions, like what exactly am i here for, and if the gods even knew i existed, or am i just another worthless human on this planet.
I got up, and walked over to the garden we have. I looked up at the sky which was starting to darken, and said loudly in my head, "I will be your faithful servant goddess if that will give me a purpose in life, a path to follow. I'll do whatever you ask of me, if I just could know if you know I exist." and there, I was told something. For a long while i disbelieved what i was told. Take a leaf, any leaf, from the forest and bring it back here, mix it with water and drink it. I figured it was just my idiotic self trying to make me seem important again. Well, I decided I had to have some faith for once instead of disbelieving everything as an illusion created by my own twisted mind. So I went up, picked a live oak leaf (still not very big) and brought it back to my house. I mixed it in with some water in a little glass, and brought it up to my mouth.
When the first drop hit my tongue, it was like a shockwave through my head, moving from the front to the back. There was a loud fuzzy noise that echoed in my head, and then my entire body started to feel like it was on fire (kinda like an energy surge...though it was calmer and seemed controlled) and tingled. When i finished it, and opened my eyes, I had this ultimate high for a few seconds, everything was distorted, my body felt displaced, and i just had a 'high' feeling. It calmed after that, but i was still somewhat high and on fire for quite awhile after...I felt great, and the depression was gone. And i then knew that the goddess did i know i exist.
So now i'm still pondering if I should start some druidic studies, as I should be a faithful servant of her as i promised.
There ya have it.
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