Things change in the blink of an eye

[sathor]

There is only one possible word to describe last night at the rink.

Ultimate.

That was the most fun I have had ever around people before. Most of it is because of the girls (heheh)

Yes, so the first 10 minutes or so were horrible. I was standing chatting idly with my two cousins (Justin and Shane) for that whole time, wondering if it would be this bad the whole 5 hours.

Boy, was I horribly, horribly wrong.

First, two girls come up (On was really good looking, and she was wearing a pentacle necklace) She was checking me out, I knew it, I was just not going to say anything (Too uncomfortable) Anyway, after continuing getting to know her and the other girl a little, about three OTHER girls walk over to me (Keep in mind...i'm standing next to my cousins with about 5 girls now surrounding me, age ranging from 15 to 17...) So I finally manage to get all their names memorized, and then when some good music comes on and they put the black lights on at the dance floor, they ALL awkwardly escort me out to the dance floor.

So basically I'm just standing there feeling weird, till the one girl with the pentacle necklace (veronica) decides to show me how to 'dirty dance' (heheh...) So I'm doing that deal with her for awhile.

Anyway, there was a lot of dancing and having fun going on, and basically I was caught between Veronica and her friend Sam (both really liked me i guess)

Oh, and as a side note, Goth has become a huge trend in warren within the past few months (Yeah, i know, has been a trend for 30 years, but then again, warren just didn't have any of them until a couple months ago according to shane) So basically, I was outdone by many rich goths who can buy 5,000 bracelets and lots of other stuff...but then again, no one has my hair style, and girls fucking love it.

Well, it ends up I kinda wanna ask Veronica out after talking with her for awhile about things (I asked her if she was pagan and she didn't know what that was...then i asked if she was wicca and she said yes, and it ran in her family, icky that she didn't know what pagan was...)

But then Sam gets all sad and is like friggin CRYING over the fact that I like Veronica a lot. Now...I dunno...but someone crying over a guy that showed up at a dance place for the first time seems a bit of an overreaction.

Anyway, I told veronica I didn't want to date her unless I get to know her a lot better and Sam gets over me.

So that part of the story is over.

However, there is more.

I was sitting down, dealing with this horrible fucking headache i had from sam and veronica...and Cass walks over to the table I was at.

I nearly had a nervous breakdown.

"Now you're someone I haven't seen in a very long time."

No, fucking, way, you think?

I didn't say anything, but that's what I was thinking.

"Why are you so damn quiet? You should be hugging me or something!"

So I did...and I almost friggin cried. Gods...I swear that was insane...

When I hugged her I felt like I had a piece of my heart back that I hadn't had in a very long time.

She then walked away, and I was looking for her because I really didn't want that to be the end of the meeting, and so I could get closure...

When she finally came up behind me a grabbed me and drug me to the smoking room so we could talk, I told her a lot of stuff...How she scared the hell out of me, How I thought she hated me...everything...

But when I told her I wanted some closure she said I wouldn't get it because she refused to stop seeing me.

I then asked why she never tried to get ahold of me or anything...and she said she didn't know my phone number.

She could've asked her brother...damnit...and this is where the problem arises.
Should I trust what she said, or not?

I wrote down my phone number and gave it too her, and told her to call me. She promised me she would about four times...but I still don't know...

I mean, shit, she even introduced me to some of the people she lives with (they were up there too, pretty cool people)

So what should I believe?

"Jake, I'd marry you if you were old enough."

"I'll be that age someday."

"I know."

Comments

[jennb.livejournal.com]

Jake, she isn't good for you. Be friends with her if you think you can handle it, but do NOT let it become anything else until you find out for yourself whether or not you can trust her again. I have a weird feeling about this. Just take things with a grain of salt.

hey

[ravengirl14.livejournal.com]

if you haven't figured this out-i am ally. anyways-glad you had fun, and got to talk to cass. no offence or anything to you; but im just going to say what i know-veronica(if it's veronica kramer) she seems to have a different boyfriend almost every other week or so...if you like her-thats cool...but she's got the rep. of being some-what of a slut.(it's your deal, not mine-so do watchu want) like i said-glad you had fun.
ttyl8a (ps: i am more than likely going up there next week)

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well, I'm basically back to the point where I was having a lot of anxiety over her when she had just stopped talking to me...I don't what the cycle to fucking start over again...

And if she doesn't call, it will, and there's not a fucking thing I can do about it.

Re: hey

[sathor.livejournal.com]

That's not what justin told me about her, and he's one of her best friends.

[ravengirl14.livejournal.com]

alright, alright. i dont really know HER anyways; just people who do.

Re: hey

[hav.livejournal.com]

*nod*

Good boy. See? Now you're not in that black mood I accused you of. *grin*

I retract my earlier statement. Glad to see you had a good time, you deserve it.

Re: hey

[sathor.livejournal.com]

No, i'm in a black mood right now because of cass.

And i'm hurting extremely bad.