Things, and Stuff
Jan. 26th, 2015 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorNot a whole lot to report. I've been rather neglectful of my journal as of late - maybe, in some ways, that's a good thing. While I am still quite angst-ridden and angry at my country, and angry at a lot of the people in it, and angry at myself (or sad, however you want to look at it), things have been rather quiet. Sort of.
I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but Ms. Jess decided to shoot me a few texts not too long ago. It was, some kind of weird apology? (I'm still not really sure.) She said some things along the lines of needing to leave people with something good, and having not left me with anything good (just a lot of self-esteem destroying comments, and a lot of shit I could easily read between the lines on - like considering the possibility she didn't give me a chance because she didn't like how I looked in photographs) I guess she felt she ought to try and at least apologize. Well, it didn't really help of course. And she never did respond to the two things I replied to her with. So, it was a farewell, timed well after we had last spoken (and enough to open a wound again, how nice.) I would have preferred if she had just let it all go, but I suppose in her mind it seemed reasonable. Okay. Haven't spoken since, don't care to, and even if I did, it'd be pointless - because she's in control and, 99% likely she wouldn't respond anyway, as she hardly ever did. I made my apologies and asked to see if we could still chat. No response - that's the end of that thread.
I've been sick off and on most of the winter. Yeah, I did update about the tooth issue I believe - the dentist finally saw me, and I'm not sure he did much of anything besides grind out the tooth he filled previously, leave it open, and drain out an abscess. I'm waiting until mid-February for another appointment, and hoping it doesn't get infected again. My job caused some issues over the whole deal, telling me I should have to use 5 hours of my only other personal holiday (we only get two, and they are considered "sick days" for union employees - while salary get about a week, or more) for the time off UNLESS it was an emergency - well, my statement was, "You can't ask me whether it's an emergency or not - it's a medical related issue." If they want to force EVERYONE to use personal holiday time for such things, that's fine, but you can't make it contingent on things that are regulated by law. Employers aren't allowed to ask - period. And, I was more than willing to /in friendship/ tell my coworkers and boss what went on. None of THEM had a problem with it. LOL. The politics, the ignorance, the stupidity of the place never ceases to astound me. I am paid well, seems about the only real benefit. I'm certainly not making connections, learning much, or doing any skill building here.
Over the weekend, I had a sudden onset of severe neck and upper back pain - completely inexplicable. I hadn't done any upper body work for a week. It's only now starting to feel better - I was a little concerned about this, but thankfully, doesn't seem to be lasting.
Those are the negatives out of the way I s'pose, besides the same old. This weekend I went to see my sister, her boyfriend and my niece. The weather turned terrible so I didn't stay more than a few hours - ate dinner with them, and talked a little - but I couldn't help but feel a little sad over the fact they had a gigantic television (At least a 50" wide screen) as the centerpiece of their house, and of course, it was on the whole time. This is so utterly American, I feel - when I go to someone's house on a social occasion, I want to be social...and typically, nobody else does. Luella (my niece) seems highly interested in her little books she can't read yet. She's not paying much attention to the TV, which is awesome - I hope she stays that way, because I feel like people who have that mindset are fast becoming extinct.
No news outside of that, really. Winter is winter in rural Pennsylvania. Haven't spoken to any new ladies, haven't made any new friends. Just hanging on and trying to stay breathing.
I did have one weird experience last week - some random individual on a social networking site (whom I had been corresponding with and found relatively interesting) suddenly went sour when I turned her love interest in me down (she was much older than myself, and very far away.) A week or so after that, out of the blue, she decided to accuse me of hacking her account and internet stalking a friend of hers (Lol?) and then proceeded to post this (along with my profile embedded) for every one of her followers to see. I immediately blocked her. We had no mutual followers, so it's irrelevant - I just found the experience rather strange. I actually thought she was a pretty neat person and worth talking to.
It would seem my experience of the world isn't without the bizarre, to say the least. I think I'm more likely to come in contact with people clinically, or borderline clinically insane, than sane, at times.
I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but Ms. Jess decided to shoot me a few texts not too long ago. It was, some kind of weird apology? (I'm still not really sure.) She said some things along the lines of needing to leave people with something good, and having not left me with anything good (just a lot of self-esteem destroying comments, and a lot of shit I could easily read between the lines on - like considering the possibility she didn't give me a chance because she didn't like how I looked in photographs) I guess she felt she ought to try and at least apologize. Well, it didn't really help of course. And she never did respond to the two things I replied to her with. So, it was a farewell, timed well after we had last spoken (and enough to open a wound again, how nice.) I would have preferred if she had just let it all go, but I suppose in her mind it seemed reasonable. Okay. Haven't spoken since, don't care to, and even if I did, it'd be pointless - because she's in control and, 99% likely she wouldn't respond anyway, as she hardly ever did. I made my apologies and asked to see if we could still chat. No response - that's the end of that thread.
I've been sick off and on most of the winter. Yeah, I did update about the tooth issue I believe - the dentist finally saw me, and I'm not sure he did much of anything besides grind out the tooth he filled previously, leave it open, and drain out an abscess. I'm waiting until mid-February for another appointment, and hoping it doesn't get infected again. My job caused some issues over the whole deal, telling me I should have to use 5 hours of my only other personal holiday (we only get two, and they are considered "sick days" for union employees - while salary get about a week, or more) for the time off UNLESS it was an emergency - well, my statement was, "You can't ask me whether it's an emergency or not - it's a medical related issue." If they want to force EVERYONE to use personal holiday time for such things, that's fine, but you can't make it contingent on things that are regulated by law. Employers aren't allowed to ask - period. And, I was more than willing to /in friendship/ tell my coworkers and boss what went on. None of THEM had a problem with it. LOL. The politics, the ignorance, the stupidity of the place never ceases to astound me. I am paid well, seems about the only real benefit. I'm certainly not making connections, learning much, or doing any skill building here.
Over the weekend, I had a sudden onset of severe neck and upper back pain - completely inexplicable. I hadn't done any upper body work for a week. It's only now starting to feel better - I was a little concerned about this, but thankfully, doesn't seem to be lasting.
Those are the negatives out of the way I s'pose, besides the same old. This weekend I went to see my sister, her boyfriend and my niece. The weather turned terrible so I didn't stay more than a few hours - ate dinner with them, and talked a little - but I couldn't help but feel a little sad over the fact they had a gigantic television (At least a 50" wide screen) as the centerpiece of their house, and of course, it was on the whole time. This is so utterly American, I feel - when I go to someone's house on a social occasion, I want to be social...and typically, nobody else does. Luella (my niece) seems highly interested in her little books she can't read yet. She's not paying much attention to the TV, which is awesome - I hope she stays that way, because I feel like people who have that mindset are fast becoming extinct.
No news outside of that, really. Winter is winter in rural Pennsylvania. Haven't spoken to any new ladies, haven't made any new friends. Just hanging on and trying to stay breathing.
I did have one weird experience last week - some random individual on a social networking site (whom I had been corresponding with and found relatively interesting) suddenly went sour when I turned her love interest in me down (she was much older than myself, and very far away.) A week or so after that, out of the blue, she decided to accuse me of hacking her account and internet stalking a friend of hers (Lol?) and then proceeded to post this (along with my profile embedded) for every one of her followers to see. I immediately blocked her. We had no mutual followers, so it's irrelevant - I just found the experience rather strange. I actually thought she was a pretty neat person and worth talking to.
It would seem my experience of the world isn't without the bizarre, to say the least. I think I'm more likely to come in contact with people clinically, or borderline clinically insane, than sane, at times.
