Becoming what you hate.

[sathor]

Yes, i've become what I hate.

I realize now what i've done to the past two girls that have liked me. I did exactly what cass did, only i am forced to see them everyday in school.

I separated myself, and stopped talking. without any reason.

What the hell is wrong with me. -sighs-

I need pot...i'm all out, and this is horrible.


Other than that, my SDRAM is now at 512. I don't lag in Plane of Knowledge anymore.

Comments

[jennb.livejournal.com]

No, you don't need pot.

You need to think.

You've identified the problem.

Now find the solution.

Don't say there isn't one.

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

And yeah, I don't need pot, but i was desparate last night. Give me a week or two without it.

I'm relatively happy again...I was pissed when i wrote that for a few reasons.

-hugs and wavies-

[(Anonymous)]

You don't know what you want. If you do, you know it's probably something you can't have. Your stuck on something that happened in the past and therefore, without thinking about it you are doing what you think about.-which would be what cass did- I may be wrong, fine, but it makes sence. You should try to quit thinking everything is bad and out to get you, because sometimes that isn't true and when it is; then you screwed up...that isn't your fault.

*you should know who this is*

[hav.livejournal.com]

Isn't that what we've been saying, albeit a little more forcefully and a lot less tactfully? *grin*

Get up in the hizzy, Jake. Take the risk, what's gonna happen? She gonna say no?

Get up in the hizzy, YSKWTI. Take the risk, what's gonna happen? He gonna say no?

*grin*

re:on what you said hav

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think he's afraid of "rejection". Just commitment and what comes from that...

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[sathor.livejournal.com]

Blah.

Re: re:on what you said hav

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's it. I'm afraid of commitment. Really, I'm afraid of commitment when i was willing to give up my life for the last girl that i loved. I would've done anything for her. Yeah, afraid of commitment.

Re: re:on what you said hav

[jennb.livejournal.com]

You're still in highschool, you're supposed to be afraid of commitment. But now's a good time to start working on that.

Wounds like that heal if you let them hon. I know.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Not much to work on...I'm sick of being lonely on weekends, i know that. Need some companionship.

[(Anonymous)]

you can still hang out with people on weekends without dating them....but hey if you wanna wait all the way till april-fine. thats your deal.