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sathorFor the sake of science, and because I lack any other means of altering my consciousness at the moment, I intend on trying a much higher dose of Lorazepam (a generic form of Ativan) than generally suggested. Doing some research on Erowid helped me make some guidelines for myself:
A 130lb male much smaller than me took 5.5mg of lorazepam and ended up in the hospital, due to low blood oxygenation levels. That would be 12 of these tiny fuckers, which is ludicrous to begin with. I actually tried 4 yesterday (a dose of 2mg) and it literally had NO effect. Lorazepam/Ativan is used in treating anxiety, and if this next experiment doesn't grant any real noticeable effects, then I'll have to assume I no longer suffer from (or never did suffer from) anxiety. Preeettty interesting.
A 160lb girl (she weighs about as much as me, although shorter) took 2mg of Lorazepam and basically had hallucinations. I don't know wtf was wrong with her, honestly.
It is SUPPOSED to make you more extroverted. In fact, I actually found myself less inclined to want to do ANYTHING when I took the dose yesterday. I will likely try a couple before a real "outing" as well, to see if I notice any differences. It's actually pretty easy to get it prescribed, and after hearing about the research regarding depressing/anxiety and the loss of brain cells in an important part of the brain (related to memory) I am more inclined to be interested in medicating. There is some evidence that the drugs can help regrow the lost cells as well, although the documentary I watched seemed to lean towards "the longer you go without treatment, the more permanent the damage." Meditation grows brain cells in that area too...makes sense that I was a much happier individual when I regularly did so.
Today I may try six of them, a dose of 3mg (six times recommended.) It is rather high, but not dangerous by any means.
I'll probably start with four at once, and make sure I don't have any adverse reactions. Then try another two.
The only issue with this whole direction I'm feeling is that I'm still very cautious about anti-depressants/psychotics and the effect they could have on creativity, being that there's some evidence the dopamine receptors in creative individuals are similar to those in schizophrenics...
I will probably write an experience report for Erowid and also post it here, if I do it (and something identifiable occurs.) Actually, I think I'll get some sleep before that, so it won't be for awhile.
A 130lb male much smaller than me took 5.5mg of lorazepam and ended up in the hospital, due to low blood oxygenation levels. That would be 12 of these tiny fuckers, which is ludicrous to begin with. I actually tried 4 yesterday (a dose of 2mg) and it literally had NO effect. Lorazepam/Ativan is used in treating anxiety, and if this next experiment doesn't grant any real noticeable effects, then I'll have to assume I no longer suffer from (or never did suffer from) anxiety. Preeettty interesting.
A 160lb girl (she weighs about as much as me, although shorter) took 2mg of Lorazepam and basically had hallucinations. I don't know wtf was wrong with her, honestly.
It is SUPPOSED to make you more extroverted. In fact, I actually found myself less inclined to want to do ANYTHING when I took the dose yesterday. I will likely try a couple before a real "outing" as well, to see if I notice any differences. It's actually pretty easy to get it prescribed, and after hearing about the research regarding depressing/anxiety and the loss of brain cells in an important part of the brain (related to memory) I am more inclined to be interested in medicating. There is some evidence that the drugs can help regrow the lost cells as well, although the documentary I watched seemed to lean towards "the longer you go without treatment, the more permanent the damage." Meditation grows brain cells in that area too...makes sense that I was a much happier individual when I regularly did so.
Today I may try six of them, a dose of 3mg (six times recommended.) It is rather high, but not dangerous by any means.
I'll probably start with four at once, and make sure I don't have any adverse reactions. Then try another two.
The only issue with this whole direction I'm feeling is that I'm still very cautious about anti-depressants/psychotics and the effect they could have on creativity, being that there's some evidence the dopamine receptors in creative individuals are similar to those in schizophrenics...
I will probably write an experience report for Erowid and also post it here, if I do it (and something identifiable occurs.) Actually, I think I'll get some sleep before that, so it won't be for awhile.
