sathor | Exhausted. Lonely. Etc.

I went out on a twelve-hour opener with Mike and helped him gillnet the whole time. I'm pretty whipped. Lots of crouching down or kneeling to bleed tons of fish...we had an average day with about 72 red salmon and 4 kings...one king we kept as a gift to Pam, though. I was a little sea-sick at first, but I smoked the rest of the marijuana I had gifted to me and it helped a lot...by the time I sobered up I was fine and I finally had my sea legs. The night prior we went out to protected waters quite a ways from Cordova, anchored and slept on the ship...I actually slept pretty well and even dreamt. Mainly about friends back home and some other people I had never met...I can't remember that dream too well. Minxy was in it but she didn't have much to say...apparently I have convinced myself that she isn't real or some such, and she even disappeared for awhile in the dream but came back. That fiery red hair really stands out, ya know.

We got back to town about 10:30 last night, and I had been on the ocean for over 24 hours. Mike decided to sleep on the boat although he came back here at some point after I had snoozed off on the couch. All the stores were already closed so I was SOL on food...I came back here and found some king salmon left over, cooked it in canola oil, cheyenne pepper and garlic seasoning. It was pretty tasty. Probably could've ate four times what I cooked, though.

And I dreamed again last night. I dreamt a new star appeared and the orbits of our solar system were so changed that they all began to coalesce amongst one-another...all of the planets bunched up but didn't crash into eachother, with earth on the outside...receiving the most sunlight. A binary star system. I was dating Valerie, or Cookie again for some reason. I can't remember which it was. And I was living in their house. When I awoke in the dream after this occured, I went outside to feel searing heat, 120 degrees or more, and the sun looked like it was melting into the sky, like some kind of oil painting gone horribly wrong. It was rather amazing really. I just wish I understood the metaphors that were going on.

Also there was another dream where I was shooting baddies with a .50 cal. with a laser sight...I mean they were real bad, like resident evil style mutated creatures. Eventually they got me. Too bad.

I am still really exhausted from being on the boat. I'm pretty hungry too but atm I'm simply too tired to do much of anything involving me going to a store or w/e. I'm going to have to spend some of my money on food. And I expect I'll be hiding anything I get in my room because I simply have to be careful about what my money gets spent on. Still no job for sure yet. I haven't turned in my application either because I'm still thinking about personal references.