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sathorComment on this post. I will choose seven interests from your profile and you will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.
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minxyminou gave me:
Tantra: I studied this a lot when I was younger, back even when I was still a virgin (15 and prior) it was an introduction for me into Hinduism which I had not really touched on yet, and really just a furthering of all of the spiritual study I was doing throughout that period of my life. I was seeking enlightenment, you might say...and I was trying to find all of the pathways that existed. Sex has always been sacred to me since then. I always saw it as something much more spiritual and meaningful than my partners, and probably more so than most of the people I've known in my life. I'm a firm believer that once you have sex with someone you are forever intertwined with them spiritually, and those who don't recognize and honor that will suffer for it in one way or another. It gives a completely different understanding of sex - one that is just as focused on pleasure as it is on extending the act for as long as possible, not because it produces pleasure, but because it increases the meaning, the significance, the connectedness of the act and the spiritual nature of it, and because it allows the two spirits two stand outside of time, together, as one. Unfortunately it has been a very long time since I've felt that feeling. It's a massive hole in my life that I can't seem to fix, and it's utterly terrifying to think that I may never experience it again.
Anarchism: My first introduction to Anarchism was in high school due to my mentor, who suggested that Anarchism would be the optimal way of life for people if it could be achieved. I didn't agree fully until I read Bakunin. The only problem is that society is so morally devoid and pro-ego that it's not possible. I would say that Buddha, Jesus, etc. were very good examples of people professing anarchism as the one true path to utopia, but it is completely contingent on all people being as one, treating eachother as brothers and sisters, and working together for the common goals of the entire race. I am an anarchist at heart, I just can't see how the world as it is today can allow for it. The capitalists would simply become mob bosses, and the cycle of government would restart all over again from authoritarian.
Ethics: This one is simple. I enjoy ethics. I really think Kant's Categorical Imperative is probably one of the best tools ever in the history of the world. It can encapsulate the ethical beliefs of essentially every religion on the face of the planet, even the self-surrendering non-violence of a hardline zen buddhist. But in general, I tend to put a good deal of thought into the ethics of any action I take, and there have been some cases where this has prevented me from moving on with my life, but I think eventually it will all work out.
Zen: Zen and Buddhism in general were big influences in my spiritual paradigm. Living in the moment (the temporal axis, you might say?) is important for healthiness, but I have fallen out of meditation and eventually I hope to step back into it, because without it living in the moment becomes increasingly difficult. My broken heart broke a good portion of everything else, including my buddhist tendencies. Zen ways of perceiving the world, Taoist ways of perceiving the world, are all very close to my heart, and the values inherent in buddhism, ethically and otherwise, are also very close to my heart, and to my intuition are aligned with the true nature of "good" "right" and "enlightenment." It's a big reason why military service is such a hard thing for me to consider...it's a major conflict inside of me, which I imagine is probably an expression of my ego's resistance to the true path.
Yoga: This falls in with the spiritual side as well. I studied and practiced it somewhat before I had professional training in college, which shouldn't come as a surprise...I honestly have studied just about every religion the planet over. Yoga goes hand in hand with Buddhism and Tantra...to me they all work together towards the same goals in very similar ways, even if they deal with different aspects of reality. Yoga is a physical expression of the path, Buddhism/Zen is a mental expression, Tantra is an emotional expression. They are all spiritual expressions and will bring a person closer to alignment with the universe/divinity when practiced with authenticity. When they are not practiced with authenticity, they will have material benefits but the spiritual aspect will be lost. The awareness, the mindfulness must be there.
Soundgarden: I wrote a paper comparing Fell on Black Days to Oedipus Rex in college. They are eerily similar, and I think my early 30s professor at the time seemed struck that I even knew of Soundgarden at my age. She was a cutie. A-Sides was my favorite album, by a far and wide margin. Much teenage angst dealt with through them, although not at all compared to
Nine Inch Nails: I don't honestly remember how I discovered Reznor. I know Matt introduced me to A Perfect Circle, who I loved from day one (and eventually I learned of TooL through a mutual friend) but I really don't believe he introduced me to Reznor. I almost want to say I may have stumbled on it through my various toilings on the internet as a boy, but the fact is I was handed Quake 1 at the age of 11 and Reznor did all of the sound effects and music for that particular game (which I never knew until long after I had stopped playing!) the NIN symbol was even on the ammo boxes for the nailgun. I was introduced to Reznor's musical style and sound creation long before I ever listened to any of his real albums...it's rather amazing for me to think about. I think it was probably fate. NIN is by a far and wide margin my favorite artist of all time. It doesn't matter if his stuff is angsty and dark...I know most people grow out of it but I never will. You have to have the dark to have the light, and it's not as if Reznor didn't have his light side. And I am very happy that he got married :) He deserves it...I hope all of his broken-hearted fans who empathized with him over the years do too. We all deserve it. And I think that's part of what he's really talking about in "We're In This Together" ... that's just an observation from yesterday, in my 22 year old mind. In my 15 year old mind, it was about me and Cassandra, the 19 year old who would've married me had I been older. I was a lucky boy to have gotten so close with a girl that much older than me, as beautiful and intelligent as she was. I was the one who didn't have the guts to go all the way with her when the opportunity was right there on a mattress, in an attic, nine inch nails playing in the background, and a 5th of rum between us.
minxyminou gave me:Tantra: I studied this a lot when I was younger, back even when I was still a virgin (15 and prior) it was an introduction for me into Hinduism which I had not really touched on yet, and really just a furthering of all of the spiritual study I was doing throughout that period of my life. I was seeking enlightenment, you might say...and I was trying to find all of the pathways that existed. Sex has always been sacred to me since then. I always saw it as something much more spiritual and meaningful than my partners, and probably more so than most of the people I've known in my life. I'm a firm believer that once you have sex with someone you are forever intertwined with them spiritually, and those who don't recognize and honor that will suffer for it in one way or another. It gives a completely different understanding of sex - one that is just as focused on pleasure as it is on extending the act for as long as possible, not because it produces pleasure, but because it increases the meaning, the significance, the connectedness of the act and the spiritual nature of it, and because it allows the two spirits two stand outside of time, together, as one. Unfortunately it has been a very long time since I've felt that feeling. It's a massive hole in my life that I can't seem to fix, and it's utterly terrifying to think that I may never experience it again.
Anarchism: My first introduction to Anarchism was in high school due to my mentor, who suggested that Anarchism would be the optimal way of life for people if it could be achieved. I didn't agree fully until I read Bakunin. The only problem is that society is so morally devoid and pro-ego that it's not possible. I would say that Buddha, Jesus, etc. were very good examples of people professing anarchism as the one true path to utopia, but it is completely contingent on all people being as one, treating eachother as brothers and sisters, and working together for the common goals of the entire race. I am an anarchist at heart, I just can't see how the world as it is today can allow for it. The capitalists would simply become mob bosses, and the cycle of government would restart all over again from authoritarian.
Ethics: This one is simple. I enjoy ethics. I really think Kant's Categorical Imperative is probably one of the best tools ever in the history of the world. It can encapsulate the ethical beliefs of essentially every religion on the face of the planet, even the self-surrendering non-violence of a hardline zen buddhist. But in general, I tend to put a good deal of thought into the ethics of any action I take, and there have been some cases where this has prevented me from moving on with my life, but I think eventually it will all work out.
Zen: Zen and Buddhism in general were big influences in my spiritual paradigm. Living in the moment (the temporal axis, you might say?) is important for healthiness, but I have fallen out of meditation and eventually I hope to step back into it, because without it living in the moment becomes increasingly difficult. My broken heart broke a good portion of everything else, including my buddhist tendencies. Zen ways of perceiving the world, Taoist ways of perceiving the world, are all very close to my heart, and the values inherent in buddhism, ethically and otherwise, are also very close to my heart, and to my intuition are aligned with the true nature of "good" "right" and "enlightenment." It's a big reason why military service is such a hard thing for me to consider...it's a major conflict inside of me, which I imagine is probably an expression of my ego's resistance to the true path.
Yoga: This falls in with the spiritual side as well. I studied and practiced it somewhat before I had professional training in college, which shouldn't come as a surprise...I honestly have studied just about every religion the planet over. Yoga goes hand in hand with Buddhism and Tantra...to me they all work together towards the same goals in very similar ways, even if they deal with different aspects of reality. Yoga is a physical expression of the path, Buddhism/Zen is a mental expression, Tantra is an emotional expression. They are all spiritual expressions and will bring a person closer to alignment with the universe/divinity when practiced with authenticity. When they are not practiced with authenticity, they will have material benefits but the spiritual aspect will be lost. The awareness, the mindfulness must be there.
Soundgarden: I wrote a paper comparing Fell on Black Days to Oedipus Rex in college. They are eerily similar, and I think my early 30s professor at the time seemed struck that I even knew of Soundgarden at my age. She was a cutie. A-Sides was my favorite album, by a far and wide margin. Much teenage angst dealt with through them, although not at all compared to
Nine Inch Nails: I don't honestly remember how I discovered Reznor. I know Matt introduced me to A Perfect Circle, who I loved from day one (and eventually I learned of TooL through a mutual friend) but I really don't believe he introduced me to Reznor. I almost want to say I may have stumbled on it through my various toilings on the internet as a boy, but the fact is I was handed Quake 1 at the age of 11 and Reznor did all of the sound effects and music for that particular game (which I never knew until long after I had stopped playing!) the NIN symbol was even on the ammo boxes for the nailgun. I was introduced to Reznor's musical style and sound creation long before I ever listened to any of his real albums...it's rather amazing for me to think about. I think it was probably fate. NIN is by a far and wide margin my favorite artist of all time. It doesn't matter if his stuff is angsty and dark...I know most people grow out of it but I never will. You have to have the dark to have the light, and it's not as if Reznor didn't have his light side. And I am very happy that he got married :) He deserves it...I hope all of his broken-hearted fans who empathized with him over the years do too. We all deserve it. And I think that's part of what he's really talking about in "We're In This Together" ... that's just an observation from yesterday, in my 22 year old mind. In my 15 year old mind, it was about me and Cassandra, the 19 year old who would've married me had I been older. I was a lucky boy to have gotten so close with a girl that much older than me, as beautiful and intelligent as she was. I was the one who didn't have the guts to go all the way with her when the opportunity was right there on a mattress, in an attic, nine inch nails playing in the background, and a 5th of rum between us.
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Date: 2010-02-02 01:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-02 06:40 am (UTC)Deftones (<3)
Southern Gothic (?)
Pirates of the Carribean (I wore eyeliner before him!)
Glebe Markets (?)
Fetish (I think I have -one- but I'm not sure if it counts)
Tantra (I never noticed that one before)
Weed (Because...this is one of my favorites)
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Date: 2010-02-02 07:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-02 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-02 09:01 pm (UTC)astrology
men
women
cats
magick
being a real person
There you go :)
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Date: 2010-02-02 09:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-02 09:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-02 10:07 pm (UTC)I still don't really understand females that well...or maybe I do...but either way I like insight...because maybe it will help me actually find love someday =\
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Date: 2010-02-02 10:13 pm (UTC)Gah...I gotta get out of here.
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Date: 2010-02-02 11:10 pm (UTC)otherkin
occult
rollerblading
therianthropy
music
mythology
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Date: 2010-02-03 06:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-03 07:13 am (UTC)modern mythology
magic
ocelots
synchronicity
eris (hail discordia)
anything
:)
It's okay, you're allowed to be argumentative. I'm sorry I've frustrated you if I have...I was afraid maybe I chased you away, and that just made me more sad than I already am.
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Date: 2010-02-04 10:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 10:54 am (UTC)hinduism
shiva
sorcerynet
tea
sushi
mahakala
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Date: 2010-02-04 11:32 am (UTC)