Ok I'm totally starting to feel like a creepy LJ stalker but you keep posting stuff that I can relate to.
I can pinpoint that point where everything changed for me too. People say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and that time heals all wounds. I don't actually agree with them. I think sometimes an experience can kill something inside you and you will never get it back. It sounds bleak but I think it's the truth. I doubt I will ever be as passionate as I used to be nor be able to really give that much of myself to someone ever again..and sometimes I miss the old me. But being different isn't always being worse even if there is nostalgia for the way things used to be.
With the music though. Well that's been there for me as long as I've been around. Is part of the problem for you that a lot of the music you like holds bad memories?
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Date: 2010-02-01 09:12 pm (UTC)I can pinpoint that point where everything changed for me too. People say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and that time heals all wounds. I don't actually agree with them. I think sometimes an experience can kill something inside you and you will never get it back. It sounds bleak but I think it's the truth. I doubt I will ever be as passionate as I used to be nor be able to really give that much of myself to someone ever again..and sometimes I miss the old me. But being different isn't always being worse even if there is nostalgia for the way things used to be.
With the music though. Well that's been there for me as long as I've been around. Is part of the problem for you that a lot of the music you like holds bad memories?