It's like.

[sathor]

It's like being back at the mill.

I went to sleep at 9:00pm and woke up at 4:00am, roughly the same time I used to wake up.

Daylight shift really wasn't daylight for a few hours.

I hate to say it but I miss it. It wasn't a complicated job that required a lot of thought or mental energy. I miss the piling, anyway...it, at least, was relatively safe too (if I had weighed 20lbs more, I never would have injured myself.) The pay just sucked so badly I can't really justify going back, even though I don't even have a job right now.

I think it made me feel like a bit more of a man. It's a question I often ask myself, whether or not I'll ever -feel- like I am one, or whether or not I even -want- too.

Well, it's time to munch on this marijuana brownie and see what happens. I've never eaten thc before. I was warned that eating the whole piece I was given will make me freak out, so I better take it easy. I don't really have tolerance for it anymore.

Maybe if it's a good high, I'll have something trippy to write (musically or here) later.

I'd prefer some mushrooms or LSD, but meh. Been four years since I had either.

Comments

[minxyminou.livejournal.com]

I really love the high from hash cookies/brownies. I'm likely giving you this advice too late but if you're not feeling anything after 40 mins to an hour don't go gobbling down the rest..give it a lil more time!

It's interesting what society says you must be to "be a man" but the bottom line is that it's for you to define for yourself so screw the shoulds with that one.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

It was definitely a much different high, so to speak. It wasn't really "out there" as it was just relaxing and soothing. I ended up eating all of it anyway...hehe...

My personal definition would probably be something similar to a life-goal list...find love of life...get married...have children...write books of philosophical inquiry...maybe teach...release an album...

Ah, why did I have to be a philosopher...Most of those would be easier if working weren't so painfully monotonous.

[sendao.livejournal.com]

I find that getting really high tends to take me strange places inside of myself or outside of myself, but rarely makes me terribly creative. Instead it supplies material that can be channeled later. Try that?

[sendao.livejournal.com]

And getting almost-really high tends to give me some really crazy ideas *L* which can amuse the hell out of people who TRY to talk to me.