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Emergency shutdown without notice started Friday. This weekend and next i'll be working at a minimum. I really feel like this is ridiculous. I can't possibly keep a fitness routine with these kinds of popup happenings...and it's hard to stay emotionally positive too. But I'm trying.
Yesterday I woke up at 4:30am and didn't actually sit down to eat dinner until about 9:00pm. I had to change the oil in my car, tune my recurve bow, split and stack wood. The last one took the longest, and put a real beating on my back (which was already sore as hell from Tuesday's workout.) All this energy expended, still not sure I'm making any real progress on any fronts. I managed to get the cold shoulder from two ladies in the past week, though. I guess that's better than no shoulders, cold or not, at all for a year.
Not really sure what else to say. Totally wiped out. Can't get enough sleep. Back can't repair itself from Tuesday. Need a day off.
I feel like the modern world really expects too much out of me...and everyone else. Especially all the slaves in third world countries. But I guess primarily me. I just don't have the energy to keep this going. It zaps all my mental and creative and emotional energies to stay focused for full work days, every day, without breaks, and the summertime workload with my father adds even more to it all. They say hard work pays off. I say, seems to me that all that time spent working isn't time spent advancing oneself in other ways.
Love you all.
Yesterday I woke up at 4:30am and didn't actually sit down to eat dinner until about 9:00pm. I had to change the oil in my car, tune my recurve bow, split and stack wood. The last one took the longest, and put a real beating on my back (which was already sore as hell from Tuesday's workout.) All this energy expended, still not sure I'm making any real progress on any fronts. I managed to get the cold shoulder from two ladies in the past week, though. I guess that's better than no shoulders, cold or not, at all for a year.
Not really sure what else to say. Totally wiped out. Can't get enough sleep. Back can't repair itself from Tuesday. Need a day off.
I feel like the modern world really expects too much out of me...and everyone else. Especially all the slaves in third world countries. But I guess primarily me. I just don't have the energy to keep this going. It zaps all my mental and creative and emotional energies to stay focused for full work days, every day, without breaks, and the summertime workload with my father adds even more to it all. They say hard work pays off. I say, seems to me that all that time spent working isn't time spent advancing oneself in other ways.
Love you all.
