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Jan. 14th, 2013 12:02 amI really want to believe, there's a light at the end of this tunnel...
But I can't see it.
And it's entirely possible in this world of possibilities that my life will continue on this god forsaken path until the bitter end...and I'm sure it would be awfully bitter.
But I can't say it wasn't foreshadowed by my youth and everything else...and most recently, it's been the worst it has ever been.
How many more days of this will I stand before I just quit my job and slip into my darkness, who knows.
It's so incredibly hard to want to deal with people in my job...deal with people at all...when this is so fucking continual in my real life interactions...I just can't handle it anymore. I really can't. I'm just waiting to break down completely, waiting to see how far, how much worse, how much further down I can go...how far can I go?
But I can't see it.
And it's entirely possible in this world of possibilities that my life will continue on this god forsaken path until the bitter end...and I'm sure it would be awfully bitter.
But I can't say it wasn't foreshadowed by my youth and everything else...and most recently, it's been the worst it has ever been.
How many more days of this will I stand before I just quit my job and slip into my darkness, who knows.
It's so incredibly hard to want to deal with people in my job...deal with people at all...when this is so fucking continual in my real life interactions...I just can't handle it anymore. I really can't. I'm just waiting to break down completely, waiting to see how far, how much worse, how much further down I can go...how far can I go?