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Rumor that the Refinery may hair test. If they do that it's no go. It won't surprise anyone, anyway, since they all know I was smoking pot 2.5 weeks ago. Actually, if they tell me I'm getting hair tested, I'll tell them, "Well, sorry...I probably have more experience and education than a good number of your applicants who are fresh out of high school, but it's really none of your fucking business what I was doing six months ago. Good day."
On the other hand, it's not as if I burned my bridge with the mill. I can go back any time. And there's a few other jobs around I can get into once I have stable transport. This is sort of an irrelevant hurdle if it comes down to it. Not to mention, since I'm clean, I can pretty much go anywhere that /doesn't/ hair test.
I shared my music today with someone new, who seemed to thoroughly enjoy it, and compared me to a few other artists/electronic bands that I actually liked a -lot-. One of the things they said that stuck with me was that my sounds are far more textured than they are used to out of electronic music. Apparently electronic artists are lazy and like pure tone generation? Give me a break...that's /laziness/. Electronic music is all about designing your sounds as if they're works of art themselves. When you start getting lazy, that's when you start sounding like every other kid with Cubase or FL Studio.
Some other meanderings have gone on. For instance, the possibility of me getting a place in Warren, and then maybe going back to JCC for an A.S. I'd be able to work full time, get the A.S. in about two years or so, and then move on to a four year university and take any path I really want. Actually, more and more people seem to be pushing to go be a sound engineer. If people really do think my music has potential, maybe it's the best way to go about it. I'd get a lot of valuable skills, have a degree that can get me into the business, have a portfolio of my own work...improve my own work by a great deal likely...get more gear as a result of decent-paying work...and besides that, it'd be continuing education, which I've always enjoyed. Getting into the sound engineering industry would be a perfect way to move into a more urban area as well, and have a relatively stable source of income. Not to mention that living in an urban area means universities close by...and that means even more accessible education.
These are just possibilities of course. Realistically there's a pretty good chance I'll end up working jobs that aren't quite as exciting the rest of my life. But if I am doing that, I'd rather be at least trying to go further.
Not much else to be said. Practicing my sheet music reading skills, learning more of Nobuo Uematsu's compositions. It's amazing how well I can actually read sheet music while listening to the piece simultaneously. Eventually, maybe that will translate into sight-reading.
I should be a lot better than I am, though. I need to push myself harder.
I also want to point out I somewhat regret the application I sent to Allegheny College. Someone will probably read it - actually, more than one person probably will - and get somewhat offended. Tbh, six essays and six hours for a single application was a bit much, I guess. Maybe I should've split it up for two days. The major essay wasn't shabbily written but I feel ashamed for writing it. I shouldn't have to justify my current circumstances. On the other hand, I really just wanted to drive home the point that I am a very class conscious person and quite intellectual for someone raised in the area that I was...not to mention somewhat angry that I never received any help paying for college, even with relatively outstanding marks. Frustration, I think, sums up that essay. But it's probably not the right emotion to portray to admissions. I can't expect any "human empathy" to work its way into their application procedure, and I'm sure it generally doesn't.
Oh well. I suppose considering I had a smug look on my face after I wrote it for a few hours, the fact is I got a kick out of it. So at least there's that benefit.
On the other hand, it's not as if I burned my bridge with the mill. I can go back any time. And there's a few other jobs around I can get into once I have stable transport. This is sort of an irrelevant hurdle if it comes down to it. Not to mention, since I'm clean, I can pretty much go anywhere that /doesn't/ hair test.
I shared my music today with someone new, who seemed to thoroughly enjoy it, and compared me to a few other artists/electronic bands that I actually liked a -lot-. One of the things they said that stuck with me was that my sounds are far more textured than they are used to out of electronic music. Apparently electronic artists are lazy and like pure tone generation? Give me a break...that's /laziness/. Electronic music is all about designing your sounds as if they're works of art themselves. When you start getting lazy, that's when you start sounding like every other kid with Cubase or FL Studio.
Some other meanderings have gone on. For instance, the possibility of me getting a place in Warren, and then maybe going back to JCC for an A.S. I'd be able to work full time, get the A.S. in about two years or so, and then move on to a four year university and take any path I really want. Actually, more and more people seem to be pushing to go be a sound engineer. If people really do think my music has potential, maybe it's the best way to go about it. I'd get a lot of valuable skills, have a degree that can get me into the business, have a portfolio of my own work...improve my own work by a great deal likely...get more gear as a result of decent-paying work...and besides that, it'd be continuing education, which I've always enjoyed. Getting into the sound engineering industry would be a perfect way to move into a more urban area as well, and have a relatively stable source of income. Not to mention that living in an urban area means universities close by...and that means even more accessible education.
These are just possibilities of course. Realistically there's a pretty good chance I'll end up working jobs that aren't quite as exciting the rest of my life. But if I am doing that, I'd rather be at least trying to go further.
Not much else to be said. Practicing my sheet music reading skills, learning more of Nobuo Uematsu's compositions. It's amazing how well I can actually read sheet music while listening to the piece simultaneously. Eventually, maybe that will translate into sight-reading.
I should be a lot better than I am, though. I need to push myself harder.
I also want to point out I somewhat regret the application I sent to Allegheny College. Someone will probably read it - actually, more than one person probably will - and get somewhat offended. Tbh, six essays and six hours for a single application was a bit much, I guess. Maybe I should've split it up for two days. The major essay wasn't shabbily written but I feel ashamed for writing it. I shouldn't have to justify my current circumstances. On the other hand, I really just wanted to drive home the point that I am a very class conscious person and quite intellectual for someone raised in the area that I was...not to mention somewhat angry that I never received any help paying for college, even with relatively outstanding marks. Frustration, I think, sums up that essay. But it's probably not the right emotion to portray to admissions. I can't expect any "human empathy" to work its way into their application procedure, and I'm sure it generally doesn't.
Oh well. I suppose considering I had a smug look on my face after I wrote it for a few hours, the fact is I got a kick out of it. So at least there's that benefit.
