Alright, so...

I finished a track (mostly) today (yesterday), and I think it's the first time I've ever been satisfied with something I've done. I have always been self conscious with anything I finish, especially if it contains vocals. But for this one, it doesn't seem to matter.

I smoothed it out a lot with some proper EQing today, which really made me happy with it as a whole.
The vocals are actually rather fitting, and even though the song isn't designed conventionally, I don't care this time around.
It's about as out there as pink floyd or ministry, actually maybe a combination of the two with some nine inch nails and astral projection thrown in for good measure. I really like the fusion that has gone on, I really like the sounds and the texture.

For whatever reason I actually feel rather -proud- of this accomplishment, which is a real first for me. This isn't the sort of proud that will fade with time like it does for my other works - at least, it feels like it isn't. It feels a lot deeper and resonant than usual.

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Some other thoughts on recent events:

Ketaconazole, the drug I was on for my scalp infection, has a couple interesting severe side-effects, including depression, "thoughts of wanting to hurt yourself or others," and lack of appetite.

I had two of those (take a guess, ha ha ha)

Really, so glad to be off of it again. Hopefully I don't end up needing to take it once more.