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I emailed Sweetwater when I woke up around 3:30pm today - they're an authorized Korg dealer stationed out of Indiana (The closest near me is Dunkirk, NY, but they don't have a website, and I honestly don't see a reason to drive to buy the thing at 100% price when I can order it at half.)
Yuval called me from there roughly an hour later, and I think I talked to him for about a half hour about the M3, it's features, electronic music, production, and DAWs. I was pacing around my front porch in my steel toes ecstatic about the damned thing, and the great part was he wasn't pushing it on me or trying to sell it - he was honestly giving me the four-one on the product, how it compares to other products (especially ones at a lower price) and answering every question I have about it.
I haven't met someone who I could talk to about this stuff. I guess I forget that I've been working in a software studio environment for six years now, since I was 15, and all of that knowledge is very closed off from the rest of the world. But there are people who do understand - namely, people who've done that, like I have, and people with formal sound engineering backgrounds, like Yuval and those he works with at Sweetwater.
I think they may very well be a small company, with a lot of expertise and specialization. He gave me the extension to his direct line, and said, "I know you're on the fence about this thing because of the price, but whether you buy it or not, if there's anything you want to talk about related to electronic music, equipment and production, just call me."
Maybe I impressed him somewhat because I wasn't just another idiot with shitloads of cash playing with toys that will never get them anywhere?
Either way, the sale could change, "In a new york minute."
I fully understand that. I expect the sale will disappear if the economy continues to get better. So I am faced with a very tough decision in the coming days, and I may have to sacrifice my diploma for awhile longer.
But I don't think it's going to matter.
I'm pretty set on this. I'm going to go to sound engineering school. That's all there is to it. I'm going to find the best fucking one in America or abroad, I'm going to apply with a full portfolio of my music, and I'm going to get in with a full scholarship. I'm going to meet amazing people, I'm going to make connections that will last a lifetime, and most importantly...
I think when it's all said and done, I'll be making music that will blow the mind of this tiny world. Whether it's my music, or producing the music of others in an incredibly unique way, because my history in this sphere and life in general is so unique.
Of course, hey, maybe I won't get a full scholarship...maybe I'll end up tens or hundreds of thousands in debt and in the street...but it won't be any different than this life. I was ready to off myself yesterday after a serious ordeal with her, I really don't believe she will ever talk to me again...but maybe that's for the better. I work in a mill for 8 dollars an hour. If I stayed here, not much would change. I'd move out, and I'd live near the poverty line for a long time. Nothing would be different regardless of how far I go in debt, other than the fact I will have obtained life experience I can't get anywhere else.
All I care about now, is finding where I fit in. And when I was talking with Yuval, you know what...I really felt like I fit in.
I really hope I do become rich and famous...because it will mean I can really stay connected with you all...maybe visit you, get to meet some of you face to face, and see the rest of you again for the first time in a long time.
Pray for me, eh? Maybe all of the combined energies will synergize and make it a reality.
I wrote some of the most heartbreaking lyrics yesterday after that ordeal, crying as I did it. I've never felt so devoted to someone in my whole life, without that feeling reciprocated. Never. I've never been so incredibly and fully in love, FEELING THAT LOVE, EVER.
I honestly don't believe she doesn't feel it too...I'm a magician after all. I can almost sense that she does feel it...and that she's afraid of it, and that she doesn't want to pursue it because she sees me as this guy that's stuck in this rut, still perceives me as the guy that I was four years ago when we were dating.
I'm not him anymore.
I'm Aesthetical. I'm Jake Mickelson.
And I quit drugs until my life is the way I want it to be.
Yuval called me from there roughly an hour later, and I think I talked to him for about a half hour about the M3, it's features, electronic music, production, and DAWs. I was pacing around my front porch in my steel toes ecstatic about the damned thing, and the great part was he wasn't pushing it on me or trying to sell it - he was honestly giving me the four-one on the product, how it compares to other products (especially ones at a lower price) and answering every question I have about it.
I haven't met someone who I could talk to about this stuff. I guess I forget that I've been working in a software studio environment for six years now, since I was 15, and all of that knowledge is very closed off from the rest of the world. But there are people who do understand - namely, people who've done that, like I have, and people with formal sound engineering backgrounds, like Yuval and those he works with at Sweetwater.
I think they may very well be a small company, with a lot of expertise and specialization. He gave me the extension to his direct line, and said, "I know you're on the fence about this thing because of the price, but whether you buy it or not, if there's anything you want to talk about related to electronic music, equipment and production, just call me."
Maybe I impressed him somewhat because I wasn't just another idiot with shitloads of cash playing with toys that will never get them anywhere?
Either way, the sale could change, "In a new york minute."
I fully understand that. I expect the sale will disappear if the economy continues to get better. So I am faced with a very tough decision in the coming days, and I may have to sacrifice my diploma for awhile longer.
But I don't think it's going to matter.
I'm pretty set on this. I'm going to go to sound engineering school. That's all there is to it. I'm going to find the best fucking one in America or abroad, I'm going to apply with a full portfolio of my music, and I'm going to get in with a full scholarship. I'm going to meet amazing people, I'm going to make connections that will last a lifetime, and most importantly...
I think when it's all said and done, I'll be making music that will blow the mind of this tiny world. Whether it's my music, or producing the music of others in an incredibly unique way, because my history in this sphere and life in general is so unique.
Of course, hey, maybe I won't get a full scholarship...maybe I'll end up tens or hundreds of thousands in debt and in the street...but it won't be any different than this life. I was ready to off myself yesterday after a serious ordeal with her, I really don't believe she will ever talk to me again...but maybe that's for the better. I work in a mill for 8 dollars an hour. If I stayed here, not much would change. I'd move out, and I'd live near the poverty line for a long time. Nothing would be different regardless of how far I go in debt, other than the fact I will have obtained life experience I can't get anywhere else.
All I care about now, is finding where I fit in. And when I was talking with Yuval, you know what...I really felt like I fit in.
I really hope I do become rich and famous...because it will mean I can really stay connected with you all...maybe visit you, get to meet some of you face to face, and see the rest of you again for the first time in a long time.
Pray for me, eh? Maybe all of the combined energies will synergize and make it a reality.
I wrote some of the most heartbreaking lyrics yesterday after that ordeal, crying as I did it. I've never felt so devoted to someone in my whole life, without that feeling reciprocated. Never. I've never been so incredibly and fully in love, FEELING THAT LOVE, EVER.
I honestly don't believe she doesn't feel it too...I'm a magician after all. I can almost sense that she does feel it...and that she's afraid of it, and that she doesn't want to pursue it because she sees me as this guy that's stuck in this rut, still perceives me as the guy that I was four years ago when we were dating.
I'm not him anymore.
I'm Aesthetical. I'm Jake Mickelson.
And I quit drugs until my life is the way I want it to be.
