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I deleted about three years worth of journals. And then I realized that LJ has literally kept every entry since I started this thing...in 2001.
Unbelievable. I delete three years of my life. I'm sick over this.
But, I'm going to start an offline journal, and just use this thing for what I'd like to share. It sucks, but it'd take too long to backup or delete all of these journals. So I'm just going to have to write enough in here to make it go away.
Things are weird with Cookie. Honestly? I'm angry. I'm angry over a lot of the things that have happened. And that anger has caused me to lash out a lot and say a lot of things I normally would not have.
But this journal has always been a place where I can express myself and how I feel at the time. That's not about to change.
Yep. I love her. I love her a lot more than I've ever loved anyone. And I suppose that's why I keep punishing myself for trying when it's likely an unachievable goal.
But if it takes too long, I'll have no choice but to give up on it.
Also Depressing.
Unbelievable. I delete three years of my life. I'm sick over this.
But, I'm going to start an offline journal, and just use this thing for what I'd like to share. It sucks, but it'd take too long to backup or delete all of these journals. So I'm just going to have to write enough in here to make it go away.
Things are weird with Cookie. Honestly? I'm angry. I'm angry over a lot of the things that have happened. And that anger has caused me to lash out a lot and say a lot of things I normally would not have.
But this journal has always been a place where I can express myself and how I feel at the time. That's not about to change.
Yep. I love her. I love her a lot more than I've ever loved anyone. And I suppose that's why I keep punishing myself for trying when it's likely an unachievable goal.
But if it takes too long, I'll have no choice but to give up on it.
Also Depressing.
