Sacrifice

[sathor]

Took my piercings out today. Done.

Done with it.

Done being mistreated. I want to figure out why it is that no matter where I go, or what I do, I am mistreated by women and people alike. Appearance is the first thing to go.

What'll be next?

Comments

[mystic-waves.livejournal.com]

It's hip to be square?

First the hair, now the metal?

[sathor.livejournal.com]

Yep. Clothes will probably change next.

Appearance is meaningless. If i can be more appealing to people, more affluent, then that is positive.

I'm just sick of being mistreated...I'm sick of being hurt.

[freefall127.livejournal.com]

women aren't people. hm... iiiinteresting

[sathor.livejournal.com]

You are most certainly people, I simply draw a difference there because I want to remember why I wrote this entry years from now :P

[mystic-waves.livejournal.com]

If I dress like a man people have no clue how to act around me. If I open my crude mouth they REALLY don't know how to act but I must be a dyke. But if I put on a pretty skirt and smile, I am a lady and they are nice to me...but when I cuss like a sailor or make a lewd/crude comment with a pretty skirt on I get eyes popped wide from men and women alike for some reason. The men probably get turned on. The women probably want to kill me for saying that in front of their child. It really does make a difference. People are fucking stupid.

I'm sorry...but yes the first step in playing the game is learning the rules. And you have learned a big one.

[sathor.livejournal.com]

I think the experience though...was the right thing to do.

Seeing people for how they are for the past eight years has given me the knowledge that it's okay for me to manipulate them to a degree to get what I want...because I know the vast majority of them would have treated me like shit when I dressed how I really wanted...and I'll know the ones that wouldn't have just by the way they think and talk.

Wow...big awakening...

[sendao.livejournal.com]

but what are you waking up to...
and what are you falling away from?

I wouldn't play her game if I was you.

[sendao.livejournal.com]

rather some kind of freaky space alien... ;)