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[sathor]

I'm feeling a multitude of emotions all at once and it's rather painful actually...I'm happy because i had some of the most fun i've had in a long time last night while partying. I went mudding with a totally sloshed driver in the back of a truck, lost my knife, found it after checking three times in the back of the truck, got a ride downtown at about 2:30am with another sloshed driver (kick ass music too, i think it was Linkin Park live) hopped out with my friend, and we stumbled around town till around 4:30am, and during that time we jumped in the river (that had to of been the best park of the night, it was like every cell on my body exploded when i jumped in the first time). Then we went back to his place and crashed listening to goo goo dolls and i woke up at about 8:30 because my sis was picking me up. So now i'm back home, and still drunk (I killed half a case to myself). And i finally figured something out. When you're drunk, you're only stupid to everyone around you. I can think perfectly fine and understand every word i say while i'm drunk, but people who are sober for some reason can't understand my speech. rather strange. And with weed i think it's the opposite. You feel stupid and cannot think yet sound normal even when you think your not.

The other emotions i'm feeling include: feeling like i've had something stabbed in my heart (two reasons for that one), depressed because of the fact i feel like i have something stabbed in my heart, Sad because the music i was listening to last night at my friends house reminded me of so many good times that will not /ever/ happen again, pissed because somehow i lost my sharktooth necklace (i had it on and all of a sudden it was gone), and that feeling of pointlessness still lingers...ahh well. If i died today it wouldn't matter sooner or later to anyone. -waves- i've written enough.