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sathorHard to believe it's been almost a year since i took mushrooms, but wow, last night was incredible.
The trip went better than expected, far better. I did it around other people this time...there was a lot more incomprehensable things going on than the first time (a downside, i really wanted to go home during the trip so i could meditate and experience it fully) but the fact is it was still totally wonderful.
Those trippy symbols hippies always have around are not exaggerations. I saw them all over...in my minds eye, you could say, and when i closed my eyes...huge patterns, kaleidascope style. Red lightning in the walls. A sense of pure invincibility, of being beyond this realm of existence (Doesn't change the fact that I know I existed in this reality as well, I didn't do anything stupid).
I felt a splitting of the ego, and this felt natural for once. I understand my inner child and my present self, as well as the self that is to be. The higher self was not there, at least i did not hear him...he was silent. I suppose I know why, but that is only for me to know. I felt both the fear of still being a child in this huge world, and then the world shrunk and I felt as if it is just a dream, not worth my worry. So many things. So many. My mind was going at the speed of light...so many thoughts, so many philosophies, in so little time.
It was so worth it. The feelings of empathy, the euphoria, the beauty of it all.
There are things in life so worth doing occasionally.
Also, the time dilation was beyond imagination. By the end of the trip, I felt like I had spent an eternity in this high state.
Today, i'm still seeing colours, and still have a feeling of peace. Maybe this will stay, or maybe it will go. I suppose we'll see, won't we?
Peace All.
The trip went better than expected, far better. I did it around other people this time...there was a lot more incomprehensable things going on than the first time (a downside, i really wanted to go home during the trip so i could meditate and experience it fully) but the fact is it was still totally wonderful.
Those trippy symbols hippies always have around are not exaggerations. I saw them all over...in my minds eye, you could say, and when i closed my eyes...huge patterns, kaleidascope style. Red lightning in the walls. A sense of pure invincibility, of being beyond this realm of existence (Doesn't change the fact that I know I existed in this reality as well, I didn't do anything stupid).
I felt a splitting of the ego, and this felt natural for once. I understand my inner child and my present self, as well as the self that is to be. The higher self was not there, at least i did not hear him...he was silent. I suppose I know why, but that is only for me to know. I felt both the fear of still being a child in this huge world, and then the world shrunk and I felt as if it is just a dream, not worth my worry. So many things. So many. My mind was going at the speed of light...so many thoughts, so many philosophies, in so little time.
It was so worth it. The feelings of empathy, the euphoria, the beauty of it all.
There are things in life so worth doing occasionally.
Also, the time dilation was beyond imagination. By the end of the trip, I felt like I had spent an eternity in this high state.
Today, i'm still seeing colours, and still have a feeling of peace. Maybe this will stay, or maybe it will go. I suppose we'll see, won't we?
Peace All.
