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Aug. 15th, 2004 10:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sathorOnce again, I am lost.
Everytime i feel i get a path beneath my feet, it falls out from underneath me, leaving me struggling as I fall off the edges of reality.
I felt centered for a time. Finally after the long struggle. But damnit, here the feeling is again. It's been so long! Why must I feel this way?
I've realized that one is unhappy only when one wants to be, but it seems not to matter now..An ache within my heart brings me down.
I do not know the source of this ache. Why it has returned is not apparent to me at all. I feel that the grip on reality is being loosened, though this could also mean another reality is opening. I am not sure yet.
I will give up on trips to an alter world. This is no longer worth it. This world is all I have, and though I could give in to an alter-world, I will not. This world is too beautiful, and i do not wish to destroy my perceptions of it.
This is the time of my life where i can forge who I am to be.
Everytime i feel i get a path beneath my feet, it falls out from underneath me, leaving me struggling as I fall off the edges of reality.
I felt centered for a time. Finally after the long struggle. But damnit, here the feeling is again. It's been so long! Why must I feel this way?
I've realized that one is unhappy only when one wants to be, but it seems not to matter now..An ache within my heart brings me down.
I do not know the source of this ache. Why it has returned is not apparent to me at all. I feel that the grip on reality is being loosened, though this could also mean another reality is opening. I am not sure yet.
I will give up on trips to an alter world. This is no longer worth it. This world is all I have, and though I could give in to an alter-world, I will not. This world is too beautiful, and i do not wish to destroy my perceptions of it.
This is the time of my life where i can forge who I am to be.
