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[sathor]

I face the cold in defiance, standing in my grove, staff in hand, with just an earthy toned cloth jacket and cloth pants between me and the frozen air. I call upon Cerridwen, to help me achieve enlightenment, and allow me to see the paths before me. The wind picks up as I call her name - little condensed balls of ice smash into my face quickly, though not hard enough to harm. I close my eyes and feel that which is around me - the cold, a reminder that mother nature makes her own rules, and just because it is spring doesn't mean she is garaunteed not to fall back asleep into a winter slumber for a time. I feel I am heard, and I now understand that I must attempt oneness with the element of water. I grab my second jacket from the tree it was hung on, and the knit cap from my natural altar before I start my journey back down to my staff-keeping tree. After a quick welcome and goodbye to the tree, leaning my staff lightly on it, I trek my way home - and I begin to feel compelled to draw energy, so I do. It is the element fire, into my hands and face, and then my torso and legs. Soon it feels as if I am surrounded by heat, and I can no longer feel the cold wind blowing on me, it seems to go around. I get inside feeling rejuvenated, and hop into the shower, knowing that it isn't over yet. I connect myself with the running water, becoming a part of it, then finish up and clothe myself. I walk up to my room, and sit upon the floor against the northwestern wall, facing southeast. I place my physical hands upon the floor - the ground energy, and begin to draw it in, opening every chakra up slowing and adding energy to it with my immaterial hands. I reach my crown - and as I open it, there is a rush of energy downward, and I call Cerridwen again, so she can hear me. My hands suddenly become very warm, the energy must've been building up to great heights, and my torso begins to radiate from a central point an icy feeling...the energy was very cold, so I am assuming that whatever entity had been contacted had an energy I had never felt before. Both of these energies seem to clash, my limbs feelings very warm, my torso cold...and I see a memory of a time when a person speaks true hypocracy - I realize then that I too am a hypocrite from time to time, and that must be rectified..."Think before you speak". The lesson makes perfect sense in my head. I thank Cerridwen for her insight, and end my meditation.